I'm not dead

NaNoNaNoNaNoNaNoNaNoNaNoNaNoWriMo!

Writing fills me with glee. To the point I actually can be arsed to blog again.

Not too much going on, got into college up in Ottawa and will be starting there in January. Yeah.

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY

DON'T KNOW WHY BUT INT HE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WHILE IN CLASS I JUST STARTED FEELING SO FULL OF RAGE. I AM SO ANGRY AT EVERYTHING AND I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHY.

I. AM. SO. INEXPLICABLY. ANGRY.

FINALLY BACK ON MY BLOG

FUCK YOU, GOOGLE!

So I made a new gmail for my new mangadub production group.

So with it, I intended to make a new youtube account.

...email already in use. WTF?! I DON'T FUCKING THINK SO! And of course, they tell me this AFTER they use up the username. So now I need to get a new fucking email to make a youtube account with, and I need to rename the fucking production group.

Before raging out and doing that, I tried logging in anyways, to see if it would take me to the page it created even though my braaaand new email was "taken". And you know what? It logged me in. TO AN OLD CHANNEL IT DID THE EXACT FUCKING SAME THING WITH MONTHS AGO. So, great, now they're letting me in an old channel I tried making that they wouldn't let me log in to, BUT WHERE THE FUCK IS MY NEW ONE?!

So then I rage!Quit youtube, and delete this new/old/fuckedupbygoogle account.

And you know what? This old account that is linked with my new email is somehow linked with my blogger AND BY DELETING IT I DELETED MY BLOGGER LOGIN.

But more on that in a minute. This story gets better. Not only is the production group's name STILL TAKEN, youtube fucked up the age, and wouldn't let me try to re-signup with youtube, because I was "too young". So then I had to reset ALL of my YouTube cookies. Fuck you, google. So then I re-signed-up, AND IT SOMEHOW WORKED?! with a DIFFERENT production group name, making the gmail for it completely obselete, so now I need to make a new gmail with a matching production group name....

Back to my Blogger issues. Where was I? Oh, yes, right, GOOGLE DELETED MY BLOGGER LOGIN. Oh, but my blogs were still here, BUT MY LOGIN AND USER DIDN'T EXIST.

So finally, after months of not-blogging, I rage!Rejoin. Sort of. I played the lost-password card. And even though my hotmail (which isn't linked with my new gmail but somehow was anyways) doesn't exist on blogger's server any more, it sent info to me anyways. And you know what? GOOGLE GAVE ME A NEW LOGIN FOR BLOGGER WITHOUT EVEN FUCKING TELLING ME. Thanks, guys, THANKS. WTF. Seriously?! AND GUESS WHAT? IT'S MY NEW/OLD GMAIL, WHICH ISN'T EVEN LINKED TO MY HOTMAIL. AHAHAHAHAH. WTF.

But at least I can get back in >=|

AND I STILL FUCKING HATE GOOGLE. SRSLY. WTF. SO MANY FLAWS IN YO SYSTUMS D;

A song that motivates me.

Dunno why, but this song just has the most EPIC mood to it, in my mind. It really makes me feel motivated. I'm not sure what kind of motivated I feel; I just feel... motivated. And for someone as lazy as I, motivation is great. Got lots done yesterday.

Enjoy.



When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say, we've had our fun

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

We're standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops

Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll, listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found

Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your

This Weekend

This weekend was super-cool. I got some more stuff recorded on Friday, but pretty much relaxed and decided not to do some auditions that... I probably should have. Meh.

On Saturday I was asked by one Mr. OmegaOptimusSupreme if I was available for the Team ZORM podcast with MasakoX. ...Sadly, I was not D: But that's ok. We'll just do it at a later point in time. I wasn't available because I was in Sarnia with my mom and sister. We went down by the Bayside mall, and even IN IT! [gasp]. Bear Creek Studio is closing down, but Ariel hinted that someone else is buying it and continuing on with it. Not too sure though. So I picked up a crap load of art supplies - giant wooden mannequin, medium sized hand mannequin, micron brush tip pen, micron .005 tip pen, a box of really pricey but nice markers (can't remember company), a book on perspective, a set of brush-tip pens, another giant sketch book (I just love those!), a CD by Kirk, and a set of new paints (mine are running low, and those were on sale, so why not?). Once we were done, I couldn't convince my sister or mom to go into Future Past Times with me. lol, oh well. XD

Then - and this is my favourite part of my weekend - I got to go see Kara and Jessimaca and Travis! :D Yaaaay!~ I gave Travis his present from Florida. We chilled out and played Little Big Planet, and there was a ninja, and Travi's bean-bag person looked like a pretty girl, and my bean-bag person was awesome and some kid thought it was a scary monster. Ehehehe. Then we went to othermom's house, and everyone watched Ponyo and ate stew!~ It was a fantastic visit. X3

Sunday sucked, but was still not bad. I got up early to help dad with barn chores, went to church, then took a three hour nap when I got home XD From there, I used my new hand mannequin thingie to practice drawing hands, and I drew a really good one. I coloured it with my new markers, too :D It's pretty~ Probably one of the best hands I've ever drawn.

Zetsu was being a brat, he was covered in mud and kept trying to jump on my bed, and when I closed off upstairs, he ran and hid in the basement. He REALLY did not want to go out side. So I just left him in the basement. XD Nobody was on Skype (WAT?!) so I started trying to find techno remixes of Disturbed songs on YouTube. Only found a few good ones, but here's one of them. This one really impressed me - he must have a wicked vocal-ripping program. Makes me want to do remixes. XD



And this one (these ones?) are just SO. PLAIN. CATCHY. AND UPBEAT. WTF. Love 'em.




While listening to some of this lovely stuff, I worked on cleaning up panels of the first chapter for Stand Up!. It took me SIX HOURS, but I got all 112 or so panels from the first chapter cleaned up and ready to go. All together, the video for this mangadub for chapter one of Stand Up! will have over three hundred pictures. ...Yeah. I felt motivated, so I had to get it done. About half way through, though, Zombi got on Skype so I chatted with him and Optimus, and eventually Mukluk got on and we had a grand ol' time. Mr. Apokkykins showed up later, too, and it was a fun little voice chat :D But I told Mukluk he was gonna get AIDs and die. I don't think he liked that much XP But still fun.

Yeah, so, rundown of my weekend. Some parts were boring, but amazing all at once. Most parts were just amazing. XD

Things to do before the week is up.

1. Shit to record: 2/4
2. Drawings/comics: 3/8
3. School projects: 1/1


Breakdown:
1. a) Who Wants to be a Super Villain? - Morganna the Striking's plan
b) Two Words - send in as many different voice clips as possible
c) FFVIII - Rinoa audition
d) Stand Up! Mangadub - mom's lines
2. a) Character design for Mollie
b) Character design for Rey
c) Character design for Kiron - in progress
d) Character design for Markus
e-h) comic strips 1-4
3. Business project part A

So frustrating...

I've had so many friends that are just so down on themselves lately, and it's starting to drag me down. Confidence issues, mental issues, personal issues, boyfriend troubles, girlfriend troubles, fiancée troubles, job/career issues, etc., etc., etc.

It's pretty troubling. I want to help them all, but there are so few I can help. What troubles me most is that one of them, probably one of the friends I've had for the longest, is in a really deep rut - and I tried to help her out, but she pretty much flat out said I probably wouldn't be able to help. Surprisingly, that... bothered me a lot. I tried to laugh it off with her, and offer what advice I could, and she did appreciate it... but I still feel kinda useless.

And plus, everyone being so depressed is dragging me down. ALL THIS DARKNESS AROUND ME IS SMOTHERIIING MEEE

But yeah. ;_; I need people to cheer up, so I can cheer up.

Blue hair and Ontarioga

Are the masses now appeased?

MY HAIR IS BLUE.

YAH. SEMI-PERMANENT.

I think I have food poisoning ;_;

So I got up today, made it to breakfast in time before class, and... none of the food looked appetizing. I was hungry anyways - very hungry - so I just took what looked the best, smothered it in ketchup, and ate away. It was not tasty, by any means, and I don't think that bacon was cooked. I couldn't even eat all of it. I hurried of to class, but by the time I was sitting down in that room across campus, I had the worst. stomach. ache. ever.

Before my teacher could even start, I decided to split. I felt like I was dying. It was hell enough to sit there and listen to him get off topic and talk about the same note he handed out three weeks ago, I didn't need to sit there with a very cramped up stomach, to boot. So I went back to my room and slept.

I just got up now 'cause it's too damn hot to sleep anymore. Even though it's been like, five hours since I ate, my stomach still feels like it's collapsing in on itself and tearing itself to bits. DX Looks like I'm skipping lunch. Ow, my tummmyyyyy....

GO LISTEN TO MY PODCAST, PLOX.

'Kay, so, Team ZORM episode two is officially up! Click here to go have a listen! Unfortunately, we didn't wind up re-recording it with MasakoX (co-creator of Naruto abridged, part of Team Four Star, and creator of Kampfer Abridged) as planned, simply because the scheduling was a mess. However, he promised he'd come back for episode three, which will be on voice acting.

I know it's long, but at least try to give it a listen? =( Even if you don't get all the way through it, that's cool, at least give it a shot. There is significantly less swearing than the last episode, so don't worry about that. XD Actually, recording this podcast was a lot of fun :D I liked doing it more than the first episode, MUCH more - even if we did wind up doing it twice, haha.

But yeah. I... really like being part of Team ZORM. I love those guys like brothas, we just get along so well and conversation flows so naturally. It helps that none of us are really alike, at all, so that definitely adds a whole dose of fun-fun-stuff into the mix. :D I like doing podcasts with them. And all of us are in this for the longhaul, come what may. SO BRING IT ON! HWAHWAHWA! (Okay, so the caps part here doesn't reflect anything or even make sense, but I couldn't help it. So sue me.)

So, yeah. Go give Team ZORM episode 2 a listen, and don't be afraid to check out some of our solo projects while your there. Zombi does manga reviews, Optimus does... he doesn't have anything up yet. Errr. Mukluk will be doing rants, but he doesn't have any up yet, either. I, the R in Team ZORM - Raventail - do drunken rambles/podcasts. XD

Don't be afraid to tell me what you thought of episode 2, but especially don't be afraid to leave a comment right on the page. :D We're attention whores. Give us love. ...Or hate. (Or neutrality?) Either one is fine, as long as you leave a comment. XD

Rage, Relaxation, and Tree-Climbing

RAGE:
My roommate failed out, and, "to be fair to the students who paid for a single room", I either have to find another roommate from a list of only four people (two I don't like, two I don't know) and move, or I get to pay the school another $995. NOT. HAPPY. At all.

RELAXATION:
It feels good to be back at school, away from naggy family. It also feels good to be back to my drinking habits. It also feels good to be back especially since my work load is a shit load lighter than it was last semester.

TREE-CLIMBING:
Signed up for Tree Care Techniques class, even though I didn't take Arboriculture, and even though the strain of trying to learn everything I missed is a little crazy, IT IS SO MUCH FUCKING FUN. I get to climb (branchless) trees with nothing but a holster and a rope :D HARD, SO HARD, SO VERY DIFFICULT AND PHYSICALLY TAXING, and I'm afraid of heights, but good Lord is it ever a delightful challenge! I love it! Got tested on it today and passed with flying colours. That was with tying my own knots and everything! Hehe. I even made it to the top of the treeeee~
We also get to climb ropes, just ropes, nothing around them, just hanging from a 20-something foot ceiling ropes, using nothing but the foot-locking technique to get us up. All lower body strength, so it's easy peasy. I caught on without even having to be told how to do it. XD Only problem was that my shoes don't like gripping the rope, so it made trying to wrap my feet around the working end properly to stand on the rope each time I wanted to move up difficult. BUT STILL FUN. I found a way to wrap my feet slightly more differently until I get better, less worn-out steel toed boots for it.

Fun fun tree climbing.


BUT GAH I'M SO ANGRY AT RES STAFF! ARRRRG.

Metalocaplypse

Finished the first two seasons in three days. And most of the extras. Probably my favourite TV show ;D Metalocalypse! Yay!

Toki and Pickles are tied for my favourite - Toki is just WAY too funny, and Pickles just reminds me so much of me it almost isn't funny (aside from the drugs, yeah, he reminds me sooo much of me).

Next up is Skwisgar and Nathan - Nathan is just waaaay to hilarious. Everything he says cracks me up, and he is just an awesome character. XD Skwisgar... well, you can't NOT love Skwisgar!

Next isn't a band member, but their manager. He is pretty much immortal 'cause he's so kick ass, even though he's so serious he's really entertaining, and he's voiced by LUKE SKYWALKER.

And Murderface... I HATE MURDERFACE. AUGH. He is sometimes funny, but for the most part, I just wanna punch him. Gawd.



But dammit, that's a DAMN good series. And I just love the music, too! Dethklok is great :D

But yeah. Guise. Go wach. nao. plox. yah. its gud. hurrhurr.

Back to school soon.

I'm probably headin' back to Ridgetown today, considering it's supposed to snow a bit over night.

At least, I'd like to, but.... my car is still in the shop, and my cousin STILL doesn't know what's wrong with it. Ugh. And my parents don't wanna give me a ride. WTF?! I don't get them they are frustrating and annoying D=<

But anyways, yeah. Holidays are over, I guess. Back to school.

I dunno if I told you guys, I have a room to myself now. My room mate flunked out. Her program is really hard, though, and even though it's upsetting, she's gonna try for it again next year. But... room to myself, yay? More drunken skype-ing? lol.

New Years Resolutions

Generally, I don't make new years resolutions. I mean, I don't make resolutions PERIOD, so why should New Years be any different?

But anyway, I've decided to go for three this year.
1) stop biting my nails. I've been biting them a lot lately, and it sucks. It needs to stop.
2) save money better. It was a slap in the face the other day when I found a bank statement from FOUR AND A HALF YEARS AGO, and the number on that one compared to my most recent one was... only about a thousand. I haven't even made a thousand dollars in like, 5 years. That's bad. I need to stop spending unnecessarily.
3) eat healthier. Looking at how much candy I've been eating over the past few months, it's no wonder everything is so out of whack (sleep habits, energy levels, amount of food I can eat, etc.) I'm not too worried about this one, I'm pretty good at self control when it comes to eating habits. I mean, now that I've noticed it's a problem, it'll be easy. Haha.



I spent my new years like so:

New years eve, went to Britt's, since she's in Ontario and I miss her, hurr.
We sat out in the woods, burning things, roasting hot dogs, and drinking in the snow, all while listening to coyotes howl. New Years day we ate Chinese food for supper and she sat around playing WoW all day while I played Grand Fantasia. XD It was fun. :3

She's heading back to Newfie-land tomorrow and I'm gonna miss her, 'specially since the next time I could see her could literally be YEARS, y'know, since the rest of her family will be moving out east some time this year. ;_;

Sucks. But oh well.