"This news shocked me too when my brain first reported it."
- Myself

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

My gender.

I needed something to distract me.


[x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[x] dogs are better than cats
[x] it's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team?
[x] shopping is torture
[ ] sad movies suck ((I like sad movies D: books moreso, but I love sad movies!))
[x] you own a XBOX,
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[x] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[x] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega
[x] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[x] gory movies are cool
[ ] you used to go to your dad for advice ((I don't go to anyone for advice. XD))
[x] you have at least 1 trophy of a sport
[x] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh
[x] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[ ] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[x] sports are fun
[x] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[x] you sleep at night with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once



[ ] you like to shop ((not for things girls shop for))
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[ ] you wear the color pink
[ ] you go to your mom for advice (Wait, why was the corresponding dad question "used to"...?)
[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[ ] you like going to the mall
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[ ] you like wearing jewelery
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[ ] skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] you don't like the movie Star Wars ((BLASPHEMY!))
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics
[x] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed ((only because I'm slooooow, and lazy))
[x] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] you like wearing dresses
[x] you like wearing body spray/deoderant ((I don't like being smelly, so deoderant is nice D:))
[ ] you like high heel shoes
[x] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything


Boy - 21
Girl - 4

ROFL. yaaaay.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

RIP George

I'm going to miss you.

And here, in our last hours together, I don't wanna let you go. You've been my best friend for so many years now, I can't even count how many. You were there for me when I didn't want any one else. You let me pester you and cuddle you and feed you and play with you when I just needed to be distracted. You let me hug you and kiss you when I just needed something to cling to.

It's gonna be really hard on me to watch you go, even now I'm trying to fight back the tears... but hopefully one day I'll see you again. You mean so much to me and I am so sorry this is going to happen. If only I would've known, if only...

Fuck, I need a drink....

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Good Lord, boys are stupid/EXAMS: 5/7

Yesterday, I had no exams. So, I slept in. While my roommate was off writing an exam, I cleaned our room - tidied my desk, dusted the fridge, my desk, the tv, windowsill, etc., swept, and even mopped. I pulled all the old, gross food out of the fridge, emptied the garbage, and even took out and sorted the recycling. Everything was neat and orderly and my room smelled nicely of Mr. Clean. Huttah!~

This next part I'll be taking down soon/eventually, so read while you can.

When I was done, I went for lunch, then came back and hung out with Joscelyn for a while, then I took a nap. When I got up, a good internet!Friend of mine was on Skype. We were both bored, so we both started drinking. Now, me and him are what we called "fake marries", as in, he's my Skype husband. lol. Eventually other people got on, we had a big group voice chat going, and all was fine and dandy. Until we got drunk. I started crashing - I dunno, outta nowhere I felt really depressed and shit and it was really weird.

So, he pulled me aside into a new voice chat so we could talk for a bit, like he and I commonly do. Now, we joke about "dating" all the time and he's made no secret of the fact he actually likes me. And really, it doesn't bother me. I don't care. But last night, we were both drunk, and I was depressed, and he helped me through it best he could, and it was actually really comforting. (by this point, I should make note that it was more or less me listening to him and typing back, as my roommate was asleep and drunk!Trish is not a quiet!Trish, so yeah, I had headphones, a muted mic and I was typing.) And then he actually asked me out. Being drunk, I was like, "Yeah, ok, whatever. Doesn't make a difference to me." (actually, looking back over the chat this morning, I had typed just "ok")

...So, for a whole five minutes, I had an internet boyfriend. lmao wtf I'm a dumbass.

And yes, I just said five minutes. Not long after I had typed this "ok", he starts going off on a tangent about "distance" - and within five minutes he was giving me the "we live too far away, so we can't date. But we'll keep a special place for each other in our hearts" speech and I was just like, "ok". XD It was soooo fucked up. Oh, yes, and then he went on to explain that if we ever met irl we could date. lmfao.

This morning when I woke up, my head was just like, "whaaaaaat. theeeeee. ...fuckwasthat!" And now it seems funny to me. XD

"Let's date!"
"Let's not date. Let's just 'keep a special place for each other in our hearts'."
"But if we ever meet for real we can date."
"ok. If you find a girlfriend before that that's cool, you can have her. I honestly won't care."
"Alright, yeah, and if you find a boy - "
"unlikely pffft but ok"


Just so you know, I never plan on meeting him irl. :\ And if I ever did, even less a chance now, lmao. XD

Actually, this is a good story, of why you shouldn't drink when you're bored and not with other people (irl), and also why you shouldn't accept voice-chats with a single person, who is also drunk because they are bored and not with other people (irl)
LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES, KIDDOS, or you might wind up with an internet boyfriend for five minutes.


it's such a rediculous story that I HAD to tell it! XD

Y'know what? Maybe I won't take this down, it's too lulzy.

Anywho, two more exams then I get to go home. I can't wait 'til I can gooo hooome.

- Plant ID II
- Nursery Management
- Business Management
- Business Marketing
- Greenhouse Management
- Hort. Weed Science
- Landscape Design II

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

EXAMS: 4/7

Bleh, cannot WAIT until these are done and over with. I really just hope I passed Business Management.

- Plant ID II
- Nursery Management
- Business Management
- Business Marketing
- Greenhouse Management
- Hort. Weed Science
- Landscape Design II

Monday, December 7, 2009

EXAMS: 1/7

If my supposedly hardest exam wound up being really easy, should I be proud of myself?


Good. Because DAMN that was easier than I thought!

- Plant ID II
- Nursery Management
- Business Management
- Business Marketing
- Greenhouse Management
- Hort. Weed Science
- Landscape Design II

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Y'know your semester sucks when...

You know your semester sucks when you look FORWARD to exams, because they are LESS stressful than the classes themselves. HURR.

Almost done my projects, gotta finish that Nursery temperatures one and do another paragraph or two on my weeds project. Easy peasy.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Monday, November 30, 2009

NaNoWriMo groups

So, I'm so totally in group three I pretty much founded it. I mean, I've been there since pretty much the first week in, so HURR.

Bacon, founder and ruler of Group Three: The Go On Without Me's.

I'm just that cool.

But I've got four days left of school and four big projects to do (that I can remember). Wish me luck!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

It's 4.30 am, which means...

my plant id ii final project is due in 12 hours.

...Well, okay, it's 4.40 am, so it's due in 11 hours and 50 minutes. Pah. Whatever.

I spent the last four and a half hours working dilligently on it.

...Yes, diligently. Forget the fact we were assigned this three months ago and I just started now XD

Well I now hate Aster novi-belgii, which is, for the record, New York aster. (y'know those purple flowers that grow in ditches at the end of the summer? Those are New England asters, which are pretty much the same thing).

I still have to do the plant key yet, but that will be my lunch time project. I need to get sleep. I'm not sure if I have soils in the morning, but that's ok, because even if I did I'd be skipping it.

I'm off to bed.

PS, cherry whiskey in cranberry gingerale is really tasty.
PPS, the band Skillet kept me alive the last four hours. Or at least, their song "Those Nights" kept me alive.


(incase the joke is lost upon you, the lyrics of the main chorus go:

"Remember when we'd...
stay up late and we'd talk all night
in a dark room lit by the tv light
through all the hard times in my life
those nights kept me alive
listen to the radio play all night
didn't wanna go home to another fight
through all the hard times in my life
those nights kept me alive"

lawl oh boy i need sleep)

Let's hope I do good on this project, it's worht 20% lol

Monday, November 23, 2009

-grins broadly and stupidly-


That's pretty much what my face sounds like right now.

Just finished using ontariocolleges website thing to apply to places.

Why am I grinning? Well, I have a story for you. A story that will make Becky happy, Travis happy, and Trish happy!

1. Added Algonquin's animation to my wishlist thingie. <- for Becky.
2. Added Seneca's animation to my wishlist thingie. <- for Travis
3. Submitted and did all that payment and transcript stuff. Now, here's where Trishie gets her happy. I was poking around Seneca's website, and somehow wound up on the page for something called "Acting for Camera and Voice" ...that's right, VOICE. omfg. As soon as I saw that I had a heart attack. I poked around it a bit and ... (FUCK, just realized blogging made me late for class. Oh well.) ... pretty much fell in love with the idea of this program. ...Or, at least, all the voice-acting bits of it. I took me a gander at the curriculum, and I must say - DO WANT!~

I was expecting, at the most, 1/4 of the classes to be voice stuff - at the MOST (and that still would have been enough for me) but as it turns out, around half of them are! HALF!! This is the program for me, guise!

So I went back to ontariocollegesdoohickey websitethinger, and added me some Acting for Camera and Voice.

Because seriously? omfgomfgomfg.

I also poked around to see if any other colleges had a similar program, but none had "voice" in the title unless it had to do with singing. Bleh.

BUT WHO CARES. Because. Happy Trish is happy. Even if they don't take me, I'll survive. Y'know? Because I also have the two animations for back up :P

Gotta look into how I'm going to do that testing crap though, for animation thurr at Seneca. Hurr.

Friday, November 20, 2009

I get to work all weekend. fml

No time to draw, study, projects, voice act, or even study!


I'm just leaving school now to drive to London to work. Then I get home around 10 or 11, crash, sleep, wake up early, back to work in London, then go home, crash, sleep, early up for church, straight to work in London from church, go home, crash, sleep, get up early and go back to Ridgetown, hopefully in time for class. Monday's are my longest day of classes (tied with Tuesday), so after class I'm probably going to nap, then rush to get done allll of the crazy, stupid projects I have due next week. Hopefully, none of them are due on Monday. I don't know though.

And I never get any time to novel this weekend. ;_; I'm pretty much giving up on NaNoWriMo for this year, guys, this semester has just been hell and I've hardly had free time.

Enough ranting about my shitty life.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Word count.



Again, Skype. -sighs-

BUT! SOMETHING AWESOME HAPPENED ON SKYPE TONIGHT. Aussieroth - a guy whose voice I make a point of fangirling over - was talking about some stupid little n00b that tried to troll him. So, some of us on Skype trolled him back. See, this kid was all butthurt because Aussieroth - as his name may suggest - is pretty much the most notorious Sephiroth fandubber on VAA and even youtube. Seriously, his Sephiroth voice is made of win (and I don't even like Sephiroth!). But this kid thought he was better, so he trolled poor ol' Aussie.

So, Aussieroth linked us to the troll comment and we trolled back. My reply to this kid's comment?

"Yo, (username), I'ma let you finish, but Aussieroth has one of the best Sephiroths of all time. One of the best Sephiroths of all time!"

When I told Aussie that my comment was up - after Sabien posted "cool story bro" and someone else (I think it was VG?) posted "Okay." - so he went and read mine, and then all we heard was his big, crazy, amazing booming laughter. And then, in his amazing australian accent and unnaturally (but still real) deep voice, he said, "Trish, will you marry me?"


I fanboy'd.


especially since I always kinda got the vibe he thought I was annoying D; But I've been talking to him like a NORMAL person the last few days, so I think he sees me as someone that can actually converse now. XD

At any rate, it was good fun.

But for now, I'm going to shower then to bed, so I'll be all rested up and ready to go for writing tomorrow! I will NOT even OPEN Skype tomorrow!

Goodnight, all!

(PS, see the post before this to see a picture of one of my MC's, the half-ghost guy)



i really liked this doodle I did in class a while back so I whipped out my tablet, skipped lunch and coloured him!

It's Jaaaaathe!~ :D One of my main characters!

Oh, look, and i finished him just in time to make it to class. XD Bye~!



PS here's the original doodle

Monday, November 16, 2009

Podcasts and stuff

Looks like our next podcast is gonna be on Abridging and parody projects. Since it really can't be avoided, you guys will probably find out about the secret project I've been working on for a while now XP

The blog for teh team can be found Here, so click, give feedback, and enjoy.

Also, I'm late for class. Goodbye.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Podcast is up! It's about ANIME!

Let it inspire your writing!

Go go go!

It was so fun to record with those guys! They are made of win!!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

So aparently, I'm from a poem.

But that's okay, because as Becky would say, "I'm all caps and no spaces!"

;D Seriously, when those three were just like, "TRISH, BE IN OUR FUCKING PODCAST." I was like "LOLWUT" because they had put me in it BEFORE asking me. LOL. But I'm excited to work with Optimus, Zombi, and Mukluk. They're all cool shit. This is seriously an amazing opportunity. XD

Monday, November 9, 2009

Nearly doubled my wordcount.

So, certain people got of Skype early today, which compelled me to leave. Because I was bored. So, I wrote. And without a conversation buzzing in my ears or anyone to even type to, it went REALLY fast. And I mean, before, whenever I tried to write, it would take me from about 6:00pm - 1:00am just to get a daily limit in.

I've been at it for two hours (in three minutes it marks the two hours mark) and I went from having 4,821 words to 8,185 words. NICE! ;D I hope I can keep that up tomorrow~

So I finally got Sedge introduced. FINALLY. And he's developing nicely. ;D He's already freakishly laid back, has a weird, soft, almost monotonous, yet cheery, way of speaking - ALL THE TIME - and he already pisses Jathe off to no end. 'Tis wonderful, 'tis very wonderful. But soon my novel will be departing from regular appearances of Ieli, my main character's fiance's brother (Rythen's brother) which makes me sad, because I've quite grown to enjoying his company.

Even though he's a minor character, when I did a doodledump onto my laptop the other day, I noticed I've drawn him more than my villain. I've drawn him more than his brother. Who is much more main. I've drawn him more than Sedge. I've drawn him more than Linaria. But I DON'T think I've drawn him more than Jathe just yet, only because I draw Jathe a lot, because I love to draw his hair. XD But anywho. (NOTE: will include one of these drawings below)

I think I'll call it a night. It's 12:01 now anyways, so nothing else I write will count towards the word count from the ninth XP

In non-NaNoWriMo related news, today, between our Plant tour for Plant ID II and our late Landscape Design II lecture, since Joscelyn didn't want to walk all the way home to wait for class to start, and neither did Jason, we played Rock Band in my room! XD This has been my first group-banding in a long time, and my first one with those guys, and even my first one at college here. So it was awesomesauce. On thursday I'm going to teach Annemarie to play (she just watched us), and probably Jenny at some point, too. I want all my friends to Rock Band! haha. It's such a great game, and I miss it.

But I digress. Sleepy time!~

But yeah. I'm off to shower, then to bed. See ya, everyone! :D
Happy Noveling to you all!
(I hope tomorrow is another really good writing day for me, I truly need one)

PS, here's one of my characters!~

It's Ieli Bein! :D My main character's fiance's brother, who I had to turn into a thief/ninja so I could get my plot to move. XD HUHUHU. The bottom right is a comparison of face shapes and hair styles for he and his brother, Rythen.

I'm going to miss him when he's not in it any more, but maybe I'll have him pop up in the end. Because he's probably one of the nicest niceguy characters I've ever made. He's pretty cool.

Disappointing word count is disappointing.

So, I haven't been able to write since thursday, and even then I was behind.

Dunno what my word count is at right now, but it's depressingly low. As in, I think just barely above 5,000. Yeah. Kill me now, plz.

Looks like I'll be closing Skype tonight and popping open media player and Q10. I really hope my roommate doesn't choose to watch anime or read manga tonight - she's way too distracting when she does. She'll start laughing, and keep up this fake laughter until I ask what's so funny, or on the lucky rare occasion until she realizes I'm not curious. At all. Her record is three minutes. Three minutes STRAIGHT of fake laughter. omfg. Rage.

But I digress. I just wish I had a roommate who was quiet, like I did last year, or a roommate who isn't in the room 24/7. ...Like last year.

Makes it very hard to write, and even harder to find time to record lines. I actually skipped Nursery today - the day before the midterm, fucking genius I am - so I could get some overdo lines in.

No idea when I'm going to able to audition for that Chrono Trigger dub, Female!Orochimaru and White!Zetsu for that Naruto Uncut fandub, any and every female voice - and the cat - for that Time Hollow fandub (fucking love that game)... there's a few more, but I forget. I'm just thankful the only ones who sent me lines all weekend were Sandersthepimp (I'm his Revy, Chinglish, Rem, Maya Natsume and various other voices), and Megaguts549 (aka Dan) (I do most the female voices in his Megaman NT Warrior Abridged).

I have roommate drama and my roommate doesn't even know there's drama. FML.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

My Reasons

It occurred to me today, as I was skipping class to sulk in bed because of a candy hangover (tummy aches, headaches, etc), that I'm not writing NaNoWriMo because I want to hone my skills. I'm not writing it because I want to create something decent. I'm not writing it because I want to watch a plot of mine unfold in a solid, physical, public form. I'm not writing it because I want to give my characters something to do. I'm not writing it to try to prove anything to myself, or even anyone else. I'm not writing it for the challenge. I'm not writing it for the attention (even though I'm slowly gathering quite a bit from around campus). I'm not writing it because I want to.

I'm writing it because I CAN. It's there, the idea of this, this thing... this NaNoWriMo... this MONSTER simply exists. I'm not writing to fight it, oh no, I'm writing because IT'S THERE. To leave it left untouched would nag me to no end. I need to participate, to get out there and do something with myself. I have no reason, other than the reason that it exists.

It's a lot like a alcohol to me. In the end, there's not much point to it, but it's THERE, right within my reach, for me to take a nice, big, long swig in a very limited time. It's there for me to take. It's free and it's within my grasp.

But most of all, it's what it does to me. I hate the work - just like I don't like the time and effort it takes a tank like me to get intoxicated, I don't like the time and effort it takes me to finish and wrap up all the fucking stories that fly around my head. But when the bottle is down and empty it just feels so good. I'm so carefree, de-stressed, I have fun, and it's the only time I'm truly calm and my multiple and tangled thoughts aren't driving me mad. With NaNoWriMo, it's like, "Do it, finish it, and get it done RIGHT or you get NOTHING."

Maybe it's greed, then. Maybe, for me, looking at the NaNoWriMo webpage just makes my head go "GIMMIE GIMMIE GIMMIE!" In the end it doesn't matter how much I wrote or how long (or rather, soon) it took me to do it, and it doesn't really matter that I did it, it's just the fact that it was there, and I didn't overlook it.

I don't know, it's really hard to explain. It's almost like I'm doing it for the hell of it, but...

AHA. Just figured it out. I joined a facebook group last year for NaNo, now that I recall, and the title of the group tells it like it is.

"I'm Writing a Novel in a Month Because I'm a Mental Masochist."

Or something like that. Ahahaha. Maybe that's it, then. Hehehe.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Character run down

Okay, here's the shit that's going down for my peeps.

Main cast
Linaria Mailisane - female - human - late teens/early twenties-ish - very important person on the social ladder.
To sum Linaria up in a few words: emotional; somewhat self-centred; sees the world as black and white; needy at times.
Engaged to Rythen Bein.

Jathe Thein - male - half-human, half-ghost - mid twenties - guard
To sum Jathe up in a few words: Callus/uncaring; serious; works hard when he has to; also kind of an asshole
Works for the Mailisane family as Linaria's guard.

Asada "Sedge" Elik - assumed male - human - early twenties - thief
To sum Sedge up in a few words: intelligent; light-hearted; always calm; never serious; pisses Jathe off to no end without having to do anything

Rea - female - golem - just a few years - specialist
To sum Rea up in a few words: mysterious origins; multiple personalities, literally.

Rythen Bein - male - human - early twenties - important guy
To sum Rythen up in a few words: intelligent; calm; deceptive; wise; charming
Engaged to Linaria Mailisane.

Taraxa Ixil - female - assumed human - early to late twenties - assassin
To sum Taraxa up in a few words: loyal; resourceful; respectable; tough

Secondary Characters
Lord Orin Mailisane - male - human - late forties - high social standing
Orin is Linaria's father, and Milena's husband.

Lady Milena Mailisane - female - human - early to mid forties - high social standing
Milena is Linaria's mother, and Orin's wife.

Rath - female - ghost - age unknown
Rath is Jathe and Sihn's mother.

Enoe Thein - male - human - early fifties - commoner
Enoe is Jathe's father.

Sihn - female - ghost - age unknown
Sihn is Jathe's brother, and Rath's daughter.

Lord Lerin Bein - male - human - mid to late forties - very high social standing
Lerin is Ieli and Rythen's father.

Ieli Bein - male - human - late teens - high social standings
Ieli is Lerin's son, and Rythen's brother.

Some of the info found above is subject to change, but for the most part, that's what I'm going with. No set appearances yet except that Linaria is blonde and Jathe has blue hair and grey eyes. Yeah.

Monday, November 2, 2009

KAY, SO, UM, names.

Think I might have some names for some of my characters.

Main cast
Female lead - Linaria Mailisane (Linaria = plant genus lol.)
Male lead - Jathe Thein (subject to change.)
Thief person thing - Asada "Sedge" Elik
Golem person thing - Rea
Villain - Rythen Bein
Villain's underling or w/e - Taraxa Ixil (Taxara = plant genus again, lol)

Linaria's parentals - Orin Mailisane (father), Milena Mailisane (mother)
Jathe's family - Rath (mother), Enoe Thein (father), Sihn (half-sister)
Rythen's family - Lerin Bein (father), Ieli Bein (brother)

THAT'S RIGHT FUCKING LAST NAMES. Grrr. It bothers me how often I DON'T give my novel characters last names. D=< In Bounds of Mortality, Xhai'agh was the only one with a last name. And Xhai'agh wasn't even the characters real name, and the novel never covered (rather, was never planned to cover) the part where you do find out teh real name! (Which was Illiv'nitra Auvry'ath, btw). The NaNo novel I finished a few years ago, that had EIGHT main characters, only had one character - out of all 20 or so - that had a last name, and it wasn't even a real last name. In my steampunk story, only Fr. Blake Krandt and Aerron Hull had last names. Angelina got one later on, because SHE MARRIED AERRON. Gawsh. Tch. I'm so full of fail.

BTW, I'm cheating and using a name generator to help me. DX I'm not using the names right off it, I'm mashing them up a little, but I'm mostly looking for a feel or sound or look. Or something. I dunno.

Next blog post will have a run down of genders, species, ages, etc.

For now, I lunch break, then I'll get writing, then I'll go to class! Huttah!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Neglectful trish is neglectful.

Ahahaha totally got 0 words for NaNoWriMo done today. Still trying to think of character names, GAH. There are four names. Four names I NEED to at least get STARTED... and I have one. HURR. But anywho. Got another fandub role I'm all excited about. :D

Emi Isuzu from Tenjou Tenge. :3 Yes, she has pink hair. Yes, her skirt is short. Yes, she more than likely has a weird crush on the president of the executive council.
...But she has weapons stashed literally EVERYWHERE, and she's secretly actually REALLY FAT. :D (don't ask, it's fucked up) so i <3 her.

Here's the audition vid that got me the role. I had fun making it, actually, I just wish Cody was online at the time so he could get his audition for Mitsuomi done at the same time by doing his voice in this D=< Stupid Nova Scotia kid, HURR.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Hallowe'enie! Passing classes! NaNoWriMo!

I found out today, much to my utmost joy, I actually AM passing Business Management!
I did the math - i had a 50, right on! five-o-n'-go! Hahaha! YES!

But then I did my lab, got perfect, and now my mark is a 52% ;D So excited, hurr. I should actually show up and do shit more often, lol!

But anyways, Hallowe'en pub is tomorrow, and I'm so excited. This was my favourite pub last year, and I'm totally looking forward to going again this year.

I'm either dressing in my Ninja costume (which I'm pretty sure you've all seen before, it's the one with the red kimono thing over top), oooor (and this one is more likely), my steampunk outfit. HURR.


This isn't the one I sewed together myself - that one is still a WIP. This is the one assembled from random articles of clothing I've been picking up at second hand stores and from around my house. I'm a little upset, though - two of my belts for this went missing. The shirt I spent hours chopping and re-sewing and dying went missing. My elbow-length lace glove(s) went missing. My fingerless black gloves went missing. the choker I hand-made went missing. I broke the thread holding up the gathers in the skirt (in the pictures I subbed in an old belt to hold it up, don't like it as much, but meh, it'll do). Various other parts were missing, too. So I'm pretty frustrated with it, it doesn't look as complete as I hoped.

But, alas, Joscelyn and Annemarie and I are all jumpin' in my Kabooki Justice tonight and motoring it off to Value Village, so we can find Annemarie a costume. I'll be picking up whatever odds and ends I can use while we're there. (btw, just in case you're behind on the times, Kabooki Justice is my car's name.)

Also, NaNoWriMo soon. Hmmm. I have a deillema here.

I can either...

1) Get started and finished on my Plant ID II final project before November (it's due at the end of Nov.) oooor
2) finish working out my plot kinks and name my characters and get my story plans all ready for NaNo.

...I don't think I'll have time for both. The reason I'm having trouble choosing is simple.
If I don't get my Plant ID II project done before november, It'll take away from precious novelling time and I will probably fail NaNoWriMo.
If I don't get my story plans done before I start, I'll get stuck in a really, really big rut (like I always do when I rush to start my not-very-well-thought-out-stories-where-my-characters-still-don't-have-names) and I won't finish.

It's really hard to decide - either way seems to lead to imminent failure of my novel, but I have this feeling that if I pick one and at least do one, I might be able to scrape by and make it through NaNoWriMo. I had to drop the story last year for Plant ID I, and I don't wanna do it again. HURR. What to do, what to do....

Thursday, October 22, 2009



The baby is a girl, her name is Bridget Dawn Lammers~ I'M SO EXCITED OMG

She had the baby around... 10 I think? I got the call at about 11 that it was born, so...

I wanted to drive off right then and there and go see it, but I had to finish my weeds project (day late, but teach said he wouldn't dock anything because family comes first!), now I'm going for lunch then to go to class then to write a midterm. Then I'm skipping out on the lab-bit of Landscape Design II to go home, then to London, to see the baby!


(Oh, wait, I'm the uncle, not the aunt. I almost forgot. In that case...)

EDIT: Totally epic passed the greenhouse test... totally epic failed the Landscape Design midterm. And that's supposed to be my good class?! Ah well.


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Too many things going on in my head

1. Jessie is having her baby. EXCITEMENT.
2. This project was due three hours ago, and I'm not quite done yet - giving up for tonight. EXHAUSTION.
3. Too many things to record, and they won't take long, but they still take time DX ANNOYANCE.
4. Too many tests to study for. A midterm tomorrow, two midterms on friday and a test. Too busy with projects to study. STRESSED.
5. Still haven't started my crop in greenhouse... -sigh- DEPRESSED.
6. Need to get that layout for my aunt's website done BEFORE saturday morning. Not gonna happen. WORRIED.
7. Got to sleep in today; it felt really, really, good. RESTED.
8. Too much sugar. ANXIOUS/AWAKE
10. Found some names for characters in my NaNoWriMo novel. RELIEVED.

Anyways, all in all, I'm just really messed up in the head right now, and not in my usual way. So much stress. Last night it got to the point where I had trouble breathing. I told Luke that on Skype, he made me join a voice chat to calm me down. It didn't help much, but the beer I had while joking and distracting myself really did.


In the mean time, aside from teh fact I'm going to be an aunt, my SUPER SECRET PROJECT IS GONNA BE UNDERWAY SOON, since the teaser scripting is done. Just need to finish up the casting, send teh editor teh musics, and get everyone's lines in. Gawsh I'm excited.

Combine those two things with the song I'm about to post, and you've got the only three, meagre things that have been stopping me from throwing myself out the window.

This song is Christian rock, song is "I Can't Do This" by Plumb. Gosh, she's amazing.
And the whole first verse - as soon as I heard it - just smacked me like a brick. THE WHOLE FIRST VERSE IS LIKE, MY PAST THREE WEEKS IN A NUTSHELL. HURR.

But I do like that song. ;_;

Monday, October 19, 2009

YAY! :D NaNo plans!~

Now that my school work load has lightened considerably, I'll be devoting my free time to working on my duct tape Akatsuki cloak, scripting MY SOOPER SECRET PROJECT I CAN'T TELL YOU GUYS ABOUT YET UNTIL I GET A TEASER DONE, recording auditions and lines, but most of all... plans for NaNoWriMo '09!

Man I'm excited. I took a really basic, simple, generic idea, and pimped it out. At least, that's what I think I've done with it. It probably sucks, at least, as is, it does suck. But when I get all my little plot kinks and holes and loop holes ironed out, I'm gonna have a pretty solid idea. I already have my characters pretty much all made and ready to go; might throw in a few more, one or two still need some work, but for the most part my main cast is good to go. Well, everyone still needs names... hurr... but that will come with time. ...I hope.

Regardless, I'm excited to start writing again. :3 I haven't written a real story in AGES. Probably since about last November! Hahaha. I'm such a loser. ;_;

But anywho, yes. My list of things to do this week:

- Audition for the Naruto Abridged movie thing
- Nursery project (due today!)
- NaNoWriMo plans
- More auditions for sandersthepimp (I'm already his Revy, Rem, and Chinglish...)

...Shit! Will add more to list when I'm not late for class. As in, lost track of time from blogging. Gotta go. Will edit and finish later. Bye!

Friday, October 16, 2009


i rpoisted zombi i would sing with him while dirnk so i did!

this vid was much help

zombi is aweosme. i like talkintg ot him an optimus so tonight was fun!

pub was great but i left earlty to skype with zombi and optimus!! so i did!!
and i prmoised zombi i would sing for once so we sang that but now he's gont o bed. io already miss him lol! he's a fun guy (lol but not a mushroom! lol joke_

but yeah

midterms suck

redneck pub was fun

skype is made of win

and i go to bed once i finish my beer!

gooodnight! ~ <3

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

4 down...

4 of 7 midterms/tests done
0 of 2 projects handed in

The rest of this week is still looking crazy, but I'm managing to survive.

It's moments as stressful as this one that I'm reminded that I STILL haven't started to script my ... series yet. (It's a surprise, you'll have to wait and see!)
Which, of course, just brings me more stress. Because I want to do it, but as it stands, I cannot. I have to wait. But I don't want to wait. And I still have to finish casting. Huuu.

Also, I need to go to bed early tonight, especially if I'm going to pub tomorrow. (That's right - no matter how stressed and anxious and frustrated I get, there's always time for dressing like a fool, drinking like a fool, acting like a fool, and feeling like a million bucks.)

But for now, I've got class. Toodles.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Busy, busy week...

2 tests down, 5 to go.
1 project handed in, indeterminable amount to go. (at LEAST one... maybe two? Pah, I don't know.)

So yeah, this week is gonna suck. I've slowed down on my voice auditions for the time being, and instead, threw together a demo reel. I forgot to throw in my Tayuya (Naruto) clips, and also forgot my White Rabbit (Alic in Wonderland (Yes, this one is spelt Alic.)) But oh well. Here's my demo reel.

If you don't think my Revy sounds like me, have fun listening to half the other shit I've been up to. XD YOU WILL BE EVEN MOAR "THAT'S NOT YOU!" ...but it is me. HURR.

So yeah. Looking, now, at how many of those are marked as "Casted", I'm actually taking great pride in this hobby. :D
I just found out now I lost out on the main character role from Bastard!, but that's okay. Obviously I wasn't casted because I wouldn't be able to do it effectively. XD Fine by me!~ i'm looking forward to the fandub, looks like an awesome cast.

But I digress; as I was saying, I like this little... talent? hobby? skill? pasttime? ...Whatever it is, I like it. I truly enjoy doing amateur voice acting. :D

Thursday, October 8, 2009



-ahem- But moving back to lowercase here, I'm seriously all rip-roarin' ready to go. I've already got a few major things out of the way, and plans to get the next few major things out of the way. It's actually... exciting. Knowing that, for once, my procrastination is being SLAIN.

Basically, what happened, is that my work load almost gave me a mental breakdown. I was so stressed - I couldn't/wouldn't sleep, I either ate too much or not at all, I couldn't stay awake in classes to save the life of me (the most frustrating thing), my cold starting coming back, I had constant headaches, etc., etc., etc..

But this week, on monday, I was like, "Today is going to be the first monday I'm NOT going to skip. I hate having to catch up." And I didn't skip ANYTHING! Neither with tuesday! I didn't sleep well on tuesday night though, so after Weed Sci on wednesday I went back to bed and just skipped Business Management's lab. Not a big deal.

But after that, I realized something; "If I've got the urge NOT to fall behind, why did I let myself fall behind in the first place?" I also realized, "Why the hell am I so concerned over keeping up when I'm doing nothing to actually keep up?!"

So, I got my ass in gear. The assignment I had due weeks ago - worth 5% of my final mark - is done. The assignment that takes 2 weeks for the seeds to dry that's DUE in two weeks is done - my seeds are drying happily in the greenhouse.

I finally mustered all the patience I could to sit in Barb's office and wait for her ot be not-busy so I could reinstate myself into Ridgetown college, and it went smooth and quick. I'm now officially a student at Ridgetown. ...Again.

Three most major things, done and gone.

Today I have some pictures and a rough landscape plan due for landscaping, but I haven't been able to get the pictures or the measurements, on account of the lawn I plan on doing for this project is all the fucking way in Wyoming. Huhn. I'll have to talk to teacher about getting it in on Monday's lecture period. Hurr.

Anyway, to spare you a lot of TL;DR details, here's my list (no particular order).

School Work
- Pictures/measurements of landscape to be landscaped (lol)
- Growing schedule for snap dragons
- Collect seeds for Nursery project
- Business plan for Marketing
- Weed pictures for final Weed Sci project (planned outing tonight)
- Reinstate/re-register self.
- Catch up on business notes
- Study for Plant ID
- Catch up on Greenhouse Management reading

- Layout for business' website

Voice acting crap
- Gundam 00 auditions (need to re-watch some)
- Haruhi Suzumiya auditions (need to actually watch first)
- Ouran auditions
- More Naruto Uncut auditions
- Naruto Shippuden Paradoxical auditions
- GoldenOtaku's Naruto auditions
- ZoidsBN's Romeo x Juliet auditions (need to actually watch first)
- Utawarerumono auditions (need to actually watch first)

Monday, October 5, 2009

I want to learn to play bass.

It's something I've been mulling over for a while now, but... I think I've come to a conclusion. I think I want to learn to play the bass guitar. I mentioned it to an electric guitar-playing friend of mine, and he said, "That's awesome. If you could learn to play this I would officially love you."

Of course, he linked me to a video, and as soon as I watched all nine glorious seconds of it, I met his challenege. No, I don't want Nicholai to fall in love with me. Because I have already fallen in love. ...With the clip he linked me to.

Here's the vid.

So, yeah - not huge on GazettE myself, but HOLY SHIT CAN REITA PLAY. I want to play like that. I want to tear out sweet bass solos like that. H'omg. So, I'm asking for a used bass guitar for christmas, and my friend Rebecca says she's gonna get me "Bass for Dummies" for christmas. XD LMAO.

But moving along, donated blood today, so I'm in an odd mood.

Moving along from that, I made an AMV the other day but forgot to tell you guys.

Here it is.

My first AMV ever. EVER. wtf.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Don't fuck with me.

Video explains it all. Please watch, I worked hard on this.

And yes, that is me voicing Revy ;D


Wednesday, September 30, 2009

So, I'm deregistered from Ridgetown now.

Yup, just went to go take an online test only to find out I've been deregistered.

Why, you may ask?

Because apparent I didn't pay them off completely.

Why didn't I pay them off completely?

Because I've been waiting for the invoice in the mail, like it came last year, but apparently, the invoice is only online this year. They never announced this, nor did they even email me to tell me. And you know what? This information/invoice isn't even on the main site, nor the student main site. And it's not on the main courses site, either. That's right - it's on it's own fucking stupid little site, that we, the students, never use for anything. Until this year, anyways. Now we have to use it, because aparently, that's the site they're using to deregister us.

And you know what? Well over 1/3 of the students are deregistered because of this stupid, stupid thing.


Worst part? Can't pay debit in the accounts office here at school - the debit machine won't let you take that much out. Also, for "online banking", my bank isn't listed. Don't have a credit card. WTF. Gotta pay by the end of the week - how the hell am i gonna find a blank cheque or enough cash by then?!

I've emailed my mom and gave her the stupid!Site link and my login, and hopefully one of her banks will be on the online banking thing. -frustrated sigh- I hate my school.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Feelin' Down

I've been feeling a little down the last few days. Not like, depressed or anything, but just... blah. Even though I survived my Plant ID test, I scored some super sweet voice roles (WHAT I'M REVY?! YES!), watched some anime (mostly Naruto Shippuden and Bastard!!), and had a nice, relaxing weekend... I dunno, just... blah.

So I started reading manga again, got all caught up on Nicoichi. Dammit, that one never ceases to make me giggle and go "awwwww!~"

But I'm all caught up on that so now I'm back to Amatsuki. Lots of new chapters!

I dunno why, but as soon as I started reading Amatsuki I started to perk up. Maybe it's because I missed Bonten? LMAO. I also missed Tsuyukusa, so it was good to see their faces. :3 Can't wait until I see some more Utsubushi~

Is it odd that it just takes a few pannels in a manga to stop myself from sinking into depression?

...Well, to be fair, Amatsuki has beautiful art.

...And Bonten is pretty pretty.

Friday, September 25, 2009

I completely missed it... ;_;

so, today, i got home. I was cruisin' around on facebook and got to the Wellington page, and noticed something - that event they invited me to was going on AS I WAS SITTING THERE. omg. I was late.

So I rushed off. I drove around riverfront Sarnia for almost an hour trying to find the damned place, and it doesn't help that the jerks at 7-11 gave me wrong directions. (The guy at Timmies told me EXACTLY where to find it, though, bless his soul <3 made life easier) And just as I park, jump out, and approach it, I see Kirk sitting outside talking to people.

"Hey Trish!"
"Hey there... I'm late because I got lost... haha."
"Yeah, this place is pretty hard to find, it's all tucked in this odd spot."
"We literally just finished playing."
"...God fucking dammit."

That's pretty much how it went. :\ Kirk left like, twenty seconds later, 'cause he had to go. And I left about 20 seconds after that because there was NOTHING to do.

(okay, so that conversation is a shortened version of our conversation, but it has the general point.)

So I'm pissed because I was looking forward to going, and not only did I show up late enough to miss it completely, I couldn't find any one to go with. So I showed up late enough to miss it completely ALONE. Bah!

And now I'm home, I'm bitchy, and I'm going to bed.

Mom and dad are off in London all weekend, so at least I'll have some peace and quiet around here.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

If you could kindly keep my cousin in your prayers...

Direct quote from the e-mail my mom sent me this morning:

"...it happen on Sat. night after a dance he was standing on the back of a truck (nobody seems to know who's truck he was on they didn't know the guys he was going to go home with.) and they took off and he fell of fracturing his scull from front to back and across the forehead.His friends found him laying on the side of the road and brought him home.They also wanted to take him to the hospital but he refused. Matt is about 6ft 4 and weights about 250 (lots of muscle) so you don't just carry him off somewhere. He would not go to the hospital and he was quite sick on sunday Monday and then Tuesday my sister in law tried again to get him to go but he refused so she called the ambulance and they came and got him. He could be very stubborn. Anyways thanks for the prayers."

So yeah, my cousin Matt is in the Hospital in London now. I heard on Sunday that he had been really sick after a night of partying, but to find out why is really tough. I'm worried about him, but at the same time I know he's a big, tough guy (literally), so there's some comfort in that. I know he'll be okay, but still...

If you could keep him and his family in your thoughts and prayers that would be great.

This really puts a damper on a day that started out great. -sigh-

Things to do today

Because if I don't write them down somewhere, I won't get them done.

Study for Plant ID II
Record some voice clips (voice is pretty much back!
Study for Plant ID II
Hand in my Landscape Design II project
Study for Plant ID II
Go for a walk with Jenny
Study for Plant ID II
Chcek Gaia for updates
Check Roliana for updates
Check OFDP for updates
Study for Plant ID II
Watch an episode of Bastard!! for research (no, I'm serious)
Cruise around on VAA
Study for Plant ID II
Finish that character design before I go crazy 'cause he ain't done
Study for Plant ID II
Study for Plant ID II

Can you guess which one I'm trying to place as most important?

My forseen list of things to do for tomorrow is this:
Study for Plant ID II
Pass (hopefully) test in Plant ID II

I'll give you guys a REAL blog post eventually, I swear! Until then, ciao!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Laaaaa~ Tomorrow's Plans!

My voice is almost all better, so for now, I'm gonna tuck in, get some sleep, and hope my vocal chords are all fantasmic in the morning. (I've got too many things to record for this to happen! Bah!)

Also, tomorrow me and Jenny are planning a room cleaning. Emptying garbage, recycling, sweeping, putting extra crap we don't use/touch away... basically making this room not so icky (it's not bad, actually, but cleaner would be nicer)

After that we're gonna run up town so Jenny can pick up toothpaste, and I'll probably wind up buying some fun dip or a pocket full of pixie sticks, because I do that some times. Also, I should buy some juice, or something. Water would be more ideal.

Then I'm gonna get all caught up on homework - reading things my teacher told me to read, colouring that Isometric drawing, maybe study for plant ID .... definitely study for plant ID. Do not want to fail. D;

My busy day tomorrow only gives me one thought. Okay, two.
First and foremost, will I have time to get that layout done for High Risk, No Return for Kelly? Secondly, will I get the chance/have the time to record anything?

I hope I at least get one or the other. Huuu.

But anyways, I'm off to bed nao. Looks like Bastard!! will finish downloading fine on its own. Night, guys!

Monday, September 21, 2009


VAA has been down all day and I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OMG.

And class was boring and lame, like always.

Today was uneventful.

But on the weekend I got a haircut, and went to Wyo fair! Good times, goooood times. ;D
(Yes, I actually enjoyed myself there, f--k off.)

Well, I've lost my voice so I better not talk(type? lolwut) too long. Soo... bye? xD

Friday, September 18, 2009

So, I was drunk last night...

...and I recorded my drunken ramblings and uploaded them to youtube. ;D


Thursday, September 17, 2009

isometrics and drinkables.

So today, in Landscape Design, I had fun. :3 Which means I'm srsly considering not dropping it anymore.

We got to draw a Plan view of a house first, then give it up to 7 types of shrubs/trees in front. (Plan view is birds eye view.)

Then, working off of that view, we got to draw an Elevation view.
An elevation view is a flat-on view from the front.

Then we got to do an Isometric drawing. Basically, we taped a piece of thin vellum (vellum is a kind of interesting paper that can be see through, but you can get different grades that aren't) on top of our Plan view and drew a NON FLAT VIEW :D

This involved adding lots of new lines and stuff, and while tracing the bases from the Plan view, we made constant references to our Elevation views for heights. And although it isn't technically proper - if you were to make it a tangible, 3-d object it would look wonky - but all the measurements are exactly to scale. For example, the height of the walls, if you measure it out and convert it using the scale, are 8' - exactly what the Elevation view shows. If you measure along the base of the wall, it's ... I think it was 36'? yeah, thirty six. and convert it using the scale you get 36'! Plus, it's actually not a bad view - it's very informative, and helps the imagination impaired see what they're lookin' at.

I've got to colour it, but so far, here's what I have:

I likes it <3 My prekky little house.

Moving along, PUB NIGHT TONIGHT. :D And there shall be drinking in my room, so i am excitud. Huuuurrrr. gonna gets me some drunkenness~
Cheery whiskey! (straight, of course)
...Fun Dip? ...FUCK YES! :D (I love candy ahaha)

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I Wish I Could Breathe


"Breathe" by Abney Park

I wish I could breath, I wish I could stand.
I wish I had a chance here holding your hand.
Wish I could speak, I wish could talk
I wish I could breath

Since the first day, I was alive,
I feared we would meet here in the misty outside
I wanted to run, I wanted to hide
I wish I could breath

OoOOooo oooOOoo (repeat)
I fear I can't over come this place
I know your face, your hands
I wish I could breath.

I feel a chill deep in my bones,
Nothing can heal, the way my blood moans.
Nothing can quench, My bitter thirst
I wish I could breathe.

I grasp at my heart, That burns in my chest,
It's your precious art, That makes my soul stressed.
I run short of blood, light headed I swoon.
I wish I could breathe.

And to actually hear the song is so much prettier! The Cap'n is such a PRETTY singer omg I love his voice in this song. ;_____;

In somehwhat related* news, Pub night tomorrow! Yaaay!

*I say somewhat because, although pub/drinking has nothing to do directly with the song, Abney Park is a steampunk band made up of airship pirates (even though they won't outright go and admit it, they did make a song called "Airship Pirates" in which you can hear the lines "We're a crew of drunken pilots/We're the only airship pirates"), and everyone knows pirates drink. A lot. Like people at Pub Night do. Therefore, a correlation is spotted!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


Okay, so, here's my problem.

There were some voice clip things I had to record on friday that I never got any moment of peace to do, and finally, this afternoon, I was alone here in my room in res and I was like "FUCK YES RECORDING TIEM" and then as soon as I got Audacity open Jenny walks now.

Now, Jenny knows I do this voiceover shit, and she's totally cool with it, and I have no problems attempting to do VA shit in front of people (some people) but the problem is this:

No matter how cool with it she is, as soon as I turn on my mic and start shouting into my computer, she's going to laugh. She's Jenny - she won't mean nothing by it, and she'll try hard not to, but she'll just laugh anyways. Trust me, I know this shit. Hurrrr, and it's not that I'm all like "OMG SHe'S LAUGHIIING" it's the fact that I'm RECORDING shit, including all background noise - which includes laughter. Hurrrrrrr.

Also, my schedule all week is epic fail, and therefore tuesdays are the only afternoons I get alone time to record shit.

Because Jenny has less class tiem than I do every other day.

...And Jenny never leaves the room long enough for me to get down to recording shit.
Seriously, she NEVER LEAVES. Worse than I never leave! (I mean, I do go to pub nights, and I do wander around town sometimes, and I also visit and sometimes party with my other friends. But she nevar leeeaaaaves. The only times she does is for class, or if I'm going somewhere and taking her with me. Usually at her invite. omgwtf.)

So yeah, somehow this turned from a rant of me wanting at least an hour alone to record shit, to a rant on how I don't get an hour alone to record shit. Believe me, the two things are VERY different. Baaaw.

But the most annoying thing of all;

I LOST MY FUCKING TABLET PEN. I left it on my tablet, in that nifty little slot for it, and even had the cord wrapped all snug around it, yet when I was home on the weekend I picked up my tablet and the pen was GONE. I looked in every stack of pens and pencils and colouring tools and books and sheets and sketchbooks and portfolios on that damned bench, and no pen. I looked on the floor. I looked under things on the floor. I looked aaaalll around the room for about 30 min. I even tore apart MY room trying to find it.

And. it's. gone. :(

I can't afford a new tablet right now, but I can't afford to tell Mr. Boss-man, "Oh, hi, Boss-san. Remember those animated parody/shorts I was gonna animate for this project series tihng? Ahahaha yeah no can't sorry."

I MEAN WTF. Auuugh. Frustratioooon.

I can't even do oekaki anymoar. ;_; because laptop mouse is sucks, and Paint hates laptop mouse. TABLET PEN WANT. Auuueerrrrrrrrrggggghhh!

Displeased Bacon is displeased. >_<

Monday, September 14, 2009

I Hate Mondays.

Since mondays are generally amazing at fucking with my head; AKA, mindfuck, I'm going to share a little mindfuckery with you.

If you don't get it right away, don't worry, just come back to it later and try again. If you still don't get it, at the end of my post I'll put a hint that'll help you shit those bricks.

...So anyways, I have class at eight, a bit off at lunch, and then class again all the way 'til 6. That's nine hours of classes. On a MONDAY.
I'm glad I didn't take Business financing, 'cause then I'd have THREE MORE HOURS than that. Hurrr, sounds painful.

But yes; I hate mondays.

But something I love is a series called Wallflower. I mostly started watching this anime out of boredom. But after just one episode, I was hooked. It isn't your typical reverse-harem shoujo, not by any means! I loves it so hard. Sunako is an AMAZING female lead. If I had to pick between her and Haruhi from OHSHC... I'd pick Sunako. First of all, she's ugly - they don't waste any time pointing that out, nor do they give any lapses in this fact, unless it's for plot. Second off, she's sadistic as all fuck. She spends the majority of episode three planning on how to assassinate the main character, simply because he's a "creature of light", and that offends her. Third off, she's hilarious! It's just so fun to watch her!

But yes, I recommend you guys check out Wallflower! It's awesome! And the english dub isn't too, too bad - I hate Kyouhei's voice, as well as Sunako's voice, but Greg Ayres is in it and goddammit I loves me some Greg Ayres. Oh, Vic Mignogna's in it, too, if any of you are fans of him. (And he's not the male lead lolwtfyay, for once!)

So yeah. Wallflower. Helped distract me from the mindfuck of today.

Also... Kanye West is a douche.

MINDFUCK IMAGE HINT: Count the guys in the front. No, there's not three.

Still lost? Look BETWEEN the guys in the front.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Thing I learned so far today...

1) Two dogs that really love you but really gotta pee will want back inside mere seconds after you let them out (Scooby and Nikko)
2) Some computers just naturally have ridiculously tiny harddrives (Pete's computer has like, what, 30g all together?)
3) Hook on Fonik is only free if you can dial really, really fast. (Youtube it.)
4) There is so "s" in "die". Yet I seem to pronounce it anyways.
5) trying to go for a calm, collected, cool voice makes me sound emotionless. (fuck Harribel.)
6) The people who think they're badass enough to use OptimusPrimeSupreme as a username... usually ARE badass enough. (VAA forums)
7) The new priest at St. Philip's saves money like a dutchman. ("I was going to check out the fair, but the admission was eight dollars. And, well... eight bucks is eight bucks.")
8) Dogs like blue slushies. (Zetsu)
9) Children like lazer bazookas better than a candle that's secretly a flame thrower. ...Sometimes. (Nick and Nathan)
10) Sometimes, rainbow socks are the main attraction. (Matthew, Nick and Nathan)

That's it for now. I'm thinking every sunday I'm going to have this segment.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

House sitting, baaaaw!

Why must ALL of my [two] silbings insist on ME house-sitting whenever they go away? >=| I have a scheduel too! ...It mainly includes watching anime, planning cosplays I'll never make, and recording voice clips for fun, but still! C'MON! Augh. ;_; Pete is damn lucky he's married to Jessie, because I like her better than him, so I'm doing this for her!

that and I love his dogs, Scooby and Nikko (Zetsu's brother and mother, respectively - Nikko only has 3 legs. :3 huuhuu).

Also, been making signs on Gaia because people tip me and then I gets gold so I'm not broke'd HURR. <3

Also also, Kiba still hasn't sent me his voiceclips. >3>
I'm not recording mine 'til I get his! (he hasn't even been online, hurrr)

But most importantly, Is it bad I want one of these Kens?

Oh, and before I forget, Doomsday is a wicked awesome movie. :3 Check it out!

And yet another also (also also also? Gosh that's a funny word), my sister wants me to go drinking with her tonight (FINALLY! GAH, SERIOUSLY, WOMAN!), but I'm a) doing barn chores at Pete's, housesitting for said brother, and also I have church in the morning. >_> Hurrrrrr, and SHE'S mad at ME. qbbftwgmo. Grrr.

Friday, September 11, 2009


Last night was aweeeeesome, Graffiti pub ftw, except when Kale (guy I know) found out that I wouldn't let anyone sign my upper-torso-female-parts, he asked me why, I told him that I'm not a whore and all that jazz, and he goes "Oh, so the chances of me taking you back to my room tonight are pretty slim?" OH YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN THE GLARE I GAVE HIM. And I told him there was no chance. At all. Not even a slim one. ...Then he had the nerve to ask what his chances of "bringing Annemarie back" were. I told him just as non-existant. Ahahahaha.

And then I was bored so I was trying to start a fight with Jason. But each time I kicked him he'd either hug me or touch my butt. D; displeased Bacon was displeased. I soon discovered that if I didn't try to kick him, he didn't sexually assault me. I still haven't decided if that was a worthwhile sacrifice or not yet. Because I really, really like kicking him.

I love shooting people down. ;D

But anywhoooo, back to the good news thing.

Last night's partying and beer cured my weird anxiety. As did the fundip I had for lunch! :D Yaaaay fun dip!

So anyways, I'm going home in a half-hour or so, and I'm hoping to record some voice clips when I get back.

As for Trav's suggestion on making my own flash animations, I'll have to think about it. I've got a work-heavy semester and with this side-stuff of doing fanimations for the Naruto Uncut Fandub, as well as the audio mixing, I might have not much time, at least, not yet. ^^ But if I think of anything good I'll get to it. Hurrrrr.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Anxiety wtf?

I don't know why, but I've been feeling really anxious all day.

It's odd, all the stressful stuff is out of the way, it really is!
I'm done registration, I've got all the books I'm gonna need (came to $115 bucks NEW and UNUSED, beat that, suckas!), I even finished my first day of classes with great success. I've got my new student card, it works, I'm almost all caught up on Princess Princess (er... don't ask.), and I'm having good success as a VA for fandubs. Jenny is a great roommate, me and Annemarie are probably better friends than ever (remember the roommate I always thought wanted to secretly kill me? lol), and most of the juniors this year are cool, and nice, and sociable. Not socially awkward like our year, lol.

I even got a FREE ticket to pub night tonight, and up to $40 to spend on beer (but if I use more than half of that, guys, call me an alky and make me stop drinking forever!), and I even have a few new friends (the Vet Techs next door are so nice! It's ridiculous!)

But... I still feel a strange tightness, an awkward stress that is giving me physical pain. WTF is this shit, srsly?! I can't figure it out and it's driving me crazy. I've tried everything. Homework, music, talking with people, reading manga, watching anime, writing a poem (failed haha), even drawing! ...Even blogging! Nothing works. ;_; I even talked to BRITT today for the first time in ages, and that didn't help! Huuuu. T_T I must be beyond hope!

Well, at any rate, pub starts in 45 min. I'm going to get nice and drunk (but not too drunk! No more than $20 on beer!), and if that doesn't relieve this odd tension - even for just a night! - then I'm counting myself as fucked. Huuurrh.

I think once I post this I'm going to jump over to my older posts and see if I was this anxious and stressed last year for no reason. Hurrrrr.

PS; I'm going to be animating a fanflash soon, regarding Kiba, Sasuke, and Tsume. Should be fun. ;D After it there's one that's just Kiba and Tsume, and one after that (much longer!) that involves those two, and also a line from Kisame. I've got my line fom my Sasuke VA already, and holy SHIT, that kid has talent!

I got his auditon last night, and even right now, me and Jenny keep losing it over his recording. He's just WAY too good! It's hilarious! I want to tell you why but that would spoil it! ...But anyways, I'm waiting on Kiba's lines, then I'm going to commence animation. Once a Kisame is announced I'll get the very minuscule line I need from him and get going on that third flash.

...Ah! Maybe that's why I'm so anxious?! Maybe I'm just so wound up - literally! - over all of this VA and fandub and fanflash shit. Huuu.

That could be...

...But either way I'm going to drink tonight! Relaxants ftw!

PS Audacity is the shit. ;D Love that program.


Friday, September 4, 2009

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

District 9

Words cannot describe. Go watch nao!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Panic Switch: off!

Lol blog whussat?

I'm currently in Wallaceburg, at Jenny's house. Thus my appearance on the interwebs. I'm going to be here a few days, just because. And you know what? I'm damn glad about it. I'm one of those people who doesn't like staying at people's house for more than 24 hours, but I'm actually looking forward to this. I want a damn vacation.

My summer has been hectic - each time one big event gets done and overwith, something else needs my rushed attention. And you know what? Finally it's done. No big parties, reunions, weddings, funerals, picnics, vacations, appointments - nothing planned. Well, that is, until school starts. I go back on the ninth, so expect me on interwebs frequently after that point.

But until that day, I've got nothing but time. And it feels great. No places to be, no things that require my immediate attention, nooothing. Well, occasional barn work, but that's not long term. So yey. <3

Anyways, as for my title, double meaning. Meaning one's already been cleared up; smoooooth sailing from here on out.

Meaning two?

Picked up the new Silversun Pickups CD today. And so far, I love it. I like the band's sound, and how each song has a feel that is, generally, indescribable. I do like the song "Panic Switch", thus the title. Yeah. Also picked up State of Shock's CD, and after a listen, I thinks I like them more than I did before. Also found out their bassist is a girl, which has to make me go w00tw00t, just 'cause. Yey. <3

Anyways, in my free time, I've been playing video games (mostly .hack//GU, finally on the third game, and Enchanted Arms), watching anime (check out Solty Rei, it's awesome), and ...watching Little House on the Prairie with my mother. I actually turned off the Magnificent Seven to watch that with her. WTF is wrong with me? ;_; The worst part? I've actually enjoyed it. Hurrrrr. I don't get it.

But yeah, not much else going on. Some weird kid on msn hitting on me, and no, not the french guy. ;_; Ah well. I'll scare him off, huuhuuhuu.

So I'm out for now. Ciao!

Before I post this I need to pull a random pannel out of a manga I read to post at the bottom. Yush.

Yes, Fujimoto-san, we shall.

Friday, May 29, 2009


This song is ftw!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Sister's house

I'm house sitting for my sister, which means highspeed. Yaaaay! :D I really don't want to work tonight :(

So my sister's wedding was awesome. I pretty sure she broke every stereotype of a bride there is. Several examples;

Holding/drinking beer in over half of the PHOTOGRAPHER'S pictures
crowdsurfing at the dance-part
cow-kissing the preist
her wedding had macaroni and cheese as well as hotdogs
the bride and groom on her cake were toy cars painted up like derby cars... and one had a veil glued on top.
she dared the lady who made her cake to take a bite out of it, and, sure enough, when the cake came... there was a set of gummy dentures in the back XD
her wedding party danced to "Friends in low places" by Garth Brooks
the vases on the tables were empties with lilacs she picked from her house in them
mini-strawbales were available for people to take home
she had a farmer's tan
she was only getting married in the first place to have a stag and doe
her dad andher husband's dad traded cattle as a dowry
one of the wedding guests brought her a turkey and a chicken as a present... right to the party... hahaha. XD

that's all i can remember. that night was... fuzzy for me. sooo much alcomahol was involved. XD

Anyways, I've been house sitting for her and I got to play with her dog (Nikko!) and eat her food (but the cerial wasn't so great. I forgot she's lactose intolerant and soy milk != tasties. :( bleh).

I do have to go to work tonight which sucks.

As well, I have to o her gardening for her. I was gonna do it today, then I was gonna put it off 'til tomorrow, then mom informed me that it's going to rain the next three days. -sighs- Guess I better get to it then, eh?

Well no moar blogging for me then. In the meantime, though...

I have four new favourite characters in Black Lagoon. :D
First it was Eda. Then we meet Rico! So then he was my favourite! Then Mother Superior comes in and SHE became my favourite, and then the cleaner, oh my goodness! She's amazing!

Don't get me wrong, I still love Revy, Benny, and Dutch, but geeeeez, this episode r0x0r'd my b0x0rz.

part 2

part 3

Thursday, May 7, 2009


I have to draw a picture of Anna-Marie and Kenny so that she can put it in a frame with a huuuuge mat so people can sign it and I don't want to. o_o

As well, I watched Steamboy last night. Goodness gracious I have a new favourite movie. (Okay, well, it doesn't replace True Lies but it's a close second). Yeah. Still too brain-overloaded to ramble about how good it is. But Ooooh, believe me, it is good. It doesn't help I watched the english and the chick who voiced Scarett is also the person who voiced Anemone from Eureka 7. She's my vavourite Voice Actress. She's awersome.

But anywho...
Gotta work tomorrow, bah. sucks.

SATURDAY! SEVEN O'CLOCK. MY HOUSE. STAR WARS NIGHT! Yeeeey. =3 all of you all are invited.
What's to be expected;
-Star Wars movies
-some drinking (most likely not from me)
-lightsabre fights (Lisa-Lisa's idea)

But yeah. Ahem. That's about it.

Oh, wait, before I go, here's somehting amazing and I likes it so much. So much I finished loading it on dial up lolwhut.

Monday, May 4, 2009



Friday, May 1, 2009

two moar done...

The one that is coloured and looks painting is the painting I did.

Since I couldn't find my matte, I just used watercolours to colour... on top of acrylics... er... I'm not a fan of the colours. o_o My mom is in love with it though, hahah. The other problem with not having my matte is that I won't be able to seal it properly. Damn damn damn. Ah well.

The second one is just a quick drawing, outlined with those awesome pens Julie got me for my birthday last year (God I love those things. Remind me again to thank her).

But yeah... I have time for about one more picture, then I gotta shower, and head off to Sarnia to that battle of the bands thing that's tonight. w00t w00t Wellington. Anywho.

I've always wanted to do a sketch of a kid!angel watching over a turtle that's crossing a road... ahaha... lame, I know, but it's something I've wanted to do. Maybe I'll do that now... hmmm...

Anyways, the art fair is tomorrow, Saturday, starting at 2pm. It's at St. Philip's Parish Hall, which is that building literally right behind the Bargain Shop in P-town thurr. I think at one point there's going to be a break for Mass; I think about 4:45 - 6:00ish? I might stay in the hall though... I'm not sure. It's supposed to be closed around then, but I dunno... thought I'd just warn all y'all just in case.

But yeah. Come on out, bring your family, take a good look around and maybe even buy stuff from some local artists~
Sadly Floyd Gibson won't be selling this year because he died in the fall. :( I'm sad, because he was an amazing artist (his watercolour works! ohmahye! jawdrop!) and he's the one who convinced me to start selling my art, and he helped me start out selling too. He taught me many things. Aeriel Lyons, sadly, will not be selling this year. But Pat Towers is! Haha, yes, I talked her into it. XD She's way too amazing with acryllics. It makes me feel like my stuff is the crap I cranked out when I was in JK or SK. hahaha. But anyways...

I hope this years goes better than last year. :( Last years Art Fair was a total flop. It stank worse than my room at Ridgetown this past year. Yeah, that bad. DX SO PLEASE COME OUT YOU GUYS? We need as many people to show up as we can get. ;_;

But I should get back to drawing... bye~ <3

When you walk my way, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

I'm annoyed. I planned on spending today - the day before the art fair - painting.

Two problems;

Can't find my my bottle pf glossy matte stuff (therefore I won't be able to add colour to my paintings.)
Can't find my paint brushes.

...Okay, well, I can find SOME of them, but they're all the ones I don't use, and for good reasons. These ones shed and leave little bristles all over my paintings, and as well, they're all those awkwards sized that are neither big enough to be useful nor small enough to be useful. wtf,gtfo. Yeah.

On the positive side, while looking for said matte and brushes, I found my actual paints (yaaay, I don't have to use mom's crappy stuffs), and a bunch more canvases. Even found one of my big unfinished one from a year or two ago! :O :O :O

But anywhooo

I only have... one new thing done for this year -sighs- I should be painting, not blogging, but I'm waiting for the white base coat to dry. My tube of white was empty so I had to use my mommy's crappy bottle of white. And for some weird reason, even though it IS acrylic, it's taking forever to dry. o_o But yeah. I might just paint for notverylong and then get to drawing something, because that's less time consuming. yeah.

But here's what I do have.

I actually don't like this picture very much. Well, I like how it came out, but at the same time, I don't. Er, how to explain... well, I tried something completely different (colouring wise) with this one and I like it. It involved prismacolor markers, pencil crayons, coloured mechanical pencil lead, and... well, a lot of time. XD So I like how the colouring and line art and proportions and all that came out, but, I don't like the picture itself. Like, if I were a person toolin' around the Art Fair, and I saw it, I'd be like, "Eh, no, I don't want to buy that." Yeah.

anywho, before I get back to struggling with acrylics, the other day mom and I visited a big craft store in London called Micheal's. There's so much shit there it took me a half hour before I could even think about what I needed/wanted. I seriously felt my brain folding in on itself. I couldn't even think. It was awesome! but overwhelming!.

Anyways, here's what I bought there;

- 3 Prismacolor markers - a colourless blender (which I needed), brick white (good for shading), and a nice skin coloured one (called light peach).
- A really good set of pens that was on clearance (therefore cheap, so I bought). I'm seriously in love with these. They're called Nexus Pens - and good God I am seriously madly in love with these. They write so smooth, and I don't mean feeling wise - nice, even coats of a very beautiful ink that makes my spirits soar just by using. The set comes with various browns and golds and greys and blacks, and goodness, I love them. Moving along.
- A few small canvases.
- A really, really, really big sketchbook. It's called "Biggie" and I believe it. 18" by 24" - that's fucking huge. 125 pages, to boot. This thing is so heavy and clumsy to lug around and I have to turn it sideways to get it through a door. XD I <3s it muchly. I've always wanted a huge sketchbook and now I've got one and I can't keep myself away from it. XD

Also, for the title of my blog, I shall explain. The All-American Rejects, When the World Comes Down. What a great CD! I downloaded it mostly for "Gives You Hell" (good song, quoted in title) but every other song on there is so catchy and good I love to listen to it. XD I like the song "Mona Lisa" the best, I dunno, it has a great feel to it. Yeah.

But I should go paint. -sighs-

Oh! Wait! I had a dream last night. A fucking weird dream.

Okay, so all week, I've been up til midnight, 1, and even once 3 in the morning reading "The Day of Revolution". Yes I'm that addicted, and yes, my Internet is that slow. but yeah, last night, I had a dream that I realize now has probably sprung from being so tired while reading such a mindfuck!manga. (A good mindfuck, it doesn't make me shit bricks, it just makes my brain twist and turn and blow itself up. It's that amazing.) I only remember one or two things in my dream, and one of them was a really, really weird looking urinal. And I don't remember actually doing it, but I guess in the dream I had to pee in it? Either I did or I was going to. I don't know.

But I'm seriously thinking once I finish this one I'm going to lay off the manga with genderbending in it (okay, i guess Day of Revolution really doesn't have very much genderbending/crossdressing at all, but it still gave me a fucked up dream D:)

But yeah. I gotta go paint. Bye.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Work Sucks, I Know // Yaaay I'm a llama again!

So work was hectic. A load from Valleybrook came in and they couldn't unload at the centre because he didn't have a lift so he had to unload at the back of the store, so I had to drag all the plants on really tall, awkward, crappy carts all the way across the parking lot at the grocery store. ...And one didn't fit through the door. It was stuck in the store. wtf?! So anyways, Paula, who works with me and had been helping me, had worked over time just to help me and she wanted to go home, so she left. The new grocery store owner, Heidi, well, I met her for the first time today in the middle of all this and ohmygod!Whatalady. She's awesome! But I digress, back to bitching about the load that came in. So I had to go empty and bring up one of the other carts and move all the stuff over, but oh, this cart didn't have as many shelves. So after dragging it all the way to the centre, unloading it onto the table space I didn't have, and dragging it all the way back up to the store in order to repeat the process, I realized I was fucking hungry. So I emptied all the carts I could, hauled down the rest of the perrenials to the garden centre, got one of the people in the store to help me tip the empty cart in order to get it out the door (luckily Michelle Gerrits was just coming in the store, and since she thinks I'm cool shit she helped us out. I don't know who I love more now, her or her kids. God I love her kids.), so after all this messiness was done... oh, say, three hours later? I managed to jog up to the store (once again) buy myself some dinner, sit myself down and enjoy my chicken strips and potato wedges. Then I watered some of the stuff that came in, texted Rosstopher for a bit, then he came by to pester me at work because there was no customers in and I was bored.

So then I closed up around nine and headed out to Timmies with Rosstopher, because Timmies was warm and had caffine and I was cold and tired. lol.

So Jess B. was there, and she got her (boy?)friend to buy me an iced capp. Yaaay free caffine! So we chilled with her a bit, then my mom called and told me to rent a movie, but we didn't wind up renting one cause movie zone was closed. So I just took Rosstopher to my house, and we watched half of The Emperor's New Groove with my mom, but she went to bed, so me and Ross watched the rest then I took him home.

And now I'm home and I'm blogging. But I should be sleeping because I'm so tired my knees hurt and I gotta go to London tomorrow with mom to see my dad for the first time in three days.

His new job as an important person on Ontario's Pork board is kinda lame because I don't get to see him for days at a time, but in a time where pork prices are plummeting as far as they possibly can everyday (and literally, they are), we need something else to get us money. Plus the guy that used to have his spot sucked so bad they practically handed the spot to my dad. But anyways, so yeah, he's an important, busy, suit-wearing, business-meeting, over-night-trip-goer now, so I miss him. ;_;

But I get to see him tomorrow and he said he shouldn't have any more meetings for a month so yaaaaay~

Anyways, I'm off to finish my current chapter of "The Day of Revolution" (which is just getting more awesome as I go! I love it so much! It's right up there with Amatsuki!), then I'm going to beeeed.~ Yaaay. I miss Ralph. ;_; I haven't seen him in like, whut, 12 hours? lol lol lol. More like 13 or 14. tcccch.

But yeah. Night.