Hallowe'enie! Passing classes! NaNoWriMo!

I found out today, much to my utmost joy, I actually AM passing Business Management!
I did the math - i had a 50, right on! five-o-n'-go! Hahaha! YES!

But then I did my lab, got perfect, and now my mark is a 52% ;D So excited, hurr. I should actually show up and do shit more often, lol!



But anyways, Hallowe'en pub is tomorrow, and I'm so excited. This was my favourite pub last year, and I'm totally looking forward to going again this year.

I'm either dressing in my Ninja costume (which I'm pretty sure you've all seen before, it's the one with the red kimono thing over top), oooor (and this one is more likely), my steampunk outfit. HURR.

Pictures.


This isn't the one I sewed together myself - that one is still a WIP. This is the one assembled from random articles of clothing I've been picking up at second hand stores and from around my house. I'm a little upset, though - two of my belts for this went missing. The shirt I spent hours chopping and re-sewing and dying went missing. My elbow-length lace glove(s) went missing. My fingerless black gloves went missing. the choker I hand-made went missing. I broke the thread holding up the gathers in the skirt (in the pictures I subbed in an old belt to hold it up, don't like it as much, but meh, it'll do). Various other parts were missing, too. So I'm pretty frustrated with it, it doesn't look as complete as I hoped.

But, alas, Joscelyn and Annemarie and I are all jumpin' in my Kabooki Justice tonight and motoring it off to Value Village, so we can find Annemarie a costume. I'll be picking up whatever odds and ends I can use while we're there. (btw, just in case you're behind on the times, Kabooki Justice is my car's name.)


Also, NaNoWriMo soon. Hmmm. I have a deillema here.

I can either...

1) Get started and finished on my Plant ID II final project before November (it's due at the end of Nov.) oooor
2) finish working out my plot kinks and name my characters and get my story plans all ready for NaNo.

...I don't think I'll have time for both. The reason I'm having trouble choosing is simple.
If I don't get my Plant ID II project done before november, It'll take away from precious novelling time and I will probably fail NaNoWriMo.
If I don't get my story plans done before I start, I'll get stuck in a really, really big rut (like I always do when I rush to start my not-very-well-thought-out-stories-where-my-characters-still-don't-have-names) and I won't finish.

It's really hard to decide - either way seems to lead to imminent failure of my novel, but I have this feeling that if I pick one and at least do one, I might be able to scrape by and make it through NaNoWriMo. I had to drop the story last year for Plant ID I, and I don't wanna do it again. HURR. What to do, what to do....

Bleh

this is the last time I'll be able to post before I'm off for the holidays. I'm going home tonight, and tomorrow afternoon mom's driving me back so I can take my last exam.

My monitor is driving me crazy. It keeps flickering darker and brighter, the bottom left corner is like, perma-dark, and it flickers really fast DX I might have a seizure. Baaah. Lappytop! Why are you letting me down so suddenly?!

Ah well. Anyways, I'm fairly certain I passed my Plant ID final exam (which was, as it turns out, worth 20%). And I got my final project back for that class and I got a 98%, so that's good. The only marks I lost were on formatting, because apparently, according to my teacher, titles are only supposed to have capital letters at the very start and no where else >3> ...wtf man. Ah well. Still got a 98% so I'm not gonna bitch.

Anyways, nearly three days and no nail biting, yaay!
And Jess; nailpolish doesn't work. Even that highly-toxic looking chrome nail polish didn't stop me when I tried to stop, way back in the day.
Instead I got this raunchy nail biting stuff tah goes on invisible but smells like rotton bananas and tastes like I wanna shoot myself. Yeah, that bad. It even lingers to the point where a litre of gingerale took absolutely none of the nasties away off my tongue. It makes me not want to put my hands anywhere near my mouth. Yeah.

Anyways, I'm off then. since I probably won't post between now and Jan. 8th (day I'm back at school) have a goof holiday, guys =3

PS if you need to contact me at all during the holidays, my home phone number is still
519-882-3999 and my cell is... er... holp up lemme check...
519-381-3440

So yeah. whenever you guys are off and wanna call me try those numbers out. If I'm not home, you'll probably get me on my cell-o-fone. If that doesn't work either, leave a message on my cell and I'll call ye back probably not too much later, yup. =3 'cause seriously, I wanna see you guys - all of you guys - at least ONCE over the holidays.

BYE! <3

-sighs heavily-

Y'know... that feeling you get sometimes... where you just want to go home, curl up in your blankets, and sleep for a month or two?

...That's how I feel right now. I'm not just tired physically, I'm tired mentally, and probably emotionally as well (though I'm not sure, as my emotions are never very prominent and even when they are they're so incredibly lacking). I just want to go home and just not exist to the world for a while. It would be so, so nice...

i know I gotta study for plant ID tomorrow, but I just can't do so. I finally convinced myself to, and as I was flipping through the pictures and notes, and only really focusing on memorizing botanical names, I just... couldn't do it. It wasn't that I couldn't focus, it's just that it felt like a waste of time. My brain just didn't want to absorb anything.

So now I'm posting about my depression in my blog... dear gods I'm turning into quite the angsty little emo...

This exam, which everyone (even the teacher) had been saying was only worth 10%, well... tonight at supper I mentioned it and a girl at our table who was, apparently, a second year Horticulture student just looked at me as if I was the biggest idiot ever and said "No, the final exam is worth 20% or 25% or something." I asked her if she was sure, because even Lowen had told us that it was only ten percent. She just kept staring at me (Good grief, I wanted to punch her), and just nodded.

And now I'm so confused.

I can't find my class mark breakdown sheet thing we got on the first day ANYWHERE, so I'm pretty much well almost freaking out here. If it is worth 20-25%, and I've spent the past two weeks trying to keep myself BREATHING by reminding myself it's only 10%... well, let's just say if these palpitations get any worse my heart murmur is gonna cause some shit, and I'll be in the hospital. Which won't be so bad, because then I won't have to write this omgit'sgonnakillme exam.

So yeah. Trying to study, not working. I just wanna go home and sleep the rest of my life away (except maybe wake up for Christmas). Because seriously, this shit fucking sucks. I hate this program.

I tell my mom at least once a week that I'm unhappy here, that although the classes are educational and I don't mind them, I just hate the overall program. It's getting worse and worse as I go, too, and I often try to talk to my mother about how I don't like it here. Each time I try to talk to her all serious about this, she just laughs and goes "Yooouuu liike it theeereee. Besides, everyone else tells me they hear you like it there!"

"Yeah, mom, because I lie to them so they won't be all concerned and asking all these stupid questions and trying to comfort me. I'm not happy when I'm there."

And, of course, she keeps going on and laughing like I'm just joking or something. wtf. srsly, woman. Hear me out, even just once. Why do you think I like coming home on the weekends? Certainly not to see you. I come home because I prefer you and your cruel, upsetting disbelief of my words to Ridgetown. ...Yeah, it's that bad.

but anyways, I've ranted long enough. I'm going to go over my plant list again, get some sleep, and set my alarm for an hour earlier. Because fuck this, I'll get a good night's sleep and do my studing/cramming in the morning.

Night, all. -sighs heavily-

Wish me luck.

It's done, it's doooone!

Yaaaaaaaaay!

It's 12 pages, but it's dooone ~ teacher said it would be 6 at absolute, barely plausible but possible least. So 12 is pretty good. =3

And now I NEVER have to look at a freakin' Hosta again. Well, okay, so I will, but even if it's in a hundred years it'll be too damn soon.


But I'm doooone ~



Skip ahead to 5:32, i want to learn that thing's song, it's SO CATCHY!

|D DOUGHNUT TIEM.

NOM NOM NOM DELICIOUS DOUGNUT. <---- actually wrote that while noming her doughnut

Mmmmm. I've been waiting six hours to eat that. And now there's strawberry filling on my keyboard, oops!

But anyways, yeah, got five down, five to go. And then I get to sort them all. -sighs heavily- Which is part C. But I can do part C tomorrow. If I can do one or two (preferably two) more cultivars tonight, I'll be content to finish the rest of this tomorrow.

It's not that this project is proving difficult, it's just damn well time consuming.

Anyways here's the list of ones I got so far.

Hosta ‘Golden Tiara’ (Golden Tiara Hosta)
Hosta 'Gold Standard' (Gold standard Hosta)
Hosta ‘Tokudama Aureonebulosa’ (Tokudama Aureonebulosa Hosta)
Hosta ‘Warwick Comet’ (Warwick Comet Hosta)
Hosta ‘American Icon’ (American Icon Hosta)

Yeah, google some of them, some of them look freakin' cool. Like that really long named Japanese one. And the Warwick Comet. yeah. ...

okay doughnut tiem is up. Back to work.

Life's no fun without a good scare

Here in a flash and gone without a trace

Got part A of my project again :D
Apparently chatting on msn with Nohi about life makes shit go faster, yaaaaay. So part A is done, as is my title page. That means that if I get perfect on what I got so far, that's 40 marks out of 200. Yaaaay! :D I'm almost half done ~

In the mean time, I really want that damned doughnut. So I've decided to get part B half done before I allow myself to indulge. But seriously, even though it's still in the bag, under piles of sheets for this project, and even though I'm listening to the "Nightmare Revisited" CD in order to try to block it out, it's stilllll callling loooudly to meeeee D:

I'm annoyed. I want to eat it. And now that I'm really into my project, I should probably keep going. Erm, how many cultivars do I need for part B again...? -checks- ...10. Fuck that's a lot. Well, I've got Hostas, with yellow variegations, so it can't be all that hard to find, hurrhurr.

That, and, the way this is setup is something like this;

botanical name of whatever cultivar
"copied paragraph w/description of appearance" (source)
"another copied paragraph w/description of appearance" (source)
description of appearance in my own words.

So, literally, 2/3 of part B is all just copy and paste. Hwahwahwa! Well, I'm back to work! :D I'll stop in again while I'm on my doughnut break <3

I am the "who" in "Who's there?!"

Augh

Sorry guys, won't be able to NaNo again until wednesday. Final projects, pah.

Anyways, I had a rather uneventful, but rather fun weekend. All in all, everything went well. ^^ I got to hang out with lots of people (Kelly included, yaay!) I finally made it it youth group since College started (finally, lol), and I hit the 10k mark on NaNoWriMo.

Yeah.

So yeah. Nothing too exciting here, even though for some reason I feel really pumped and all excited about something. Hwaaah.

Oh yeah, I did go write the communications midterm re-write thing, because I studied up ona few of the questions I did get wrong. So on the re-write I'm fairly certain I got those right, but... the last page of multiple choice, the page I got PERFECT on, well... the bastard teacher took it off this midterm. DAMMIT. I KNEW EVERYTHING on that page! Gwaaaah! Ah well. I'm fairly certain I did better, though, if only just a little. But yeah. Report time. Waugh. Stupid Plant ID. I'm only doing this report so I don't fail, and therefore won't have to take this class again >3>

TO MOTIVATE MYSELF TO DO IT, I bought a really yummy-looking doughnut from Tim Horton's. And I will not allow myself to eat it until I at least have... hmm, let's see... Part B done. Yeah. That means the majority of my assignment will be done. Well, it depends on how long part B takes. If it takes far too long, I'll lemme have some delicious, delicious vanilla strawberry doughnut when I'm half done part B. Yeah.

Anyways, I better get doing this damned report thingie due on wednesday... ten pages or moar, waaah...

"...Girls have feelings?"

FUNNY CONVERSATION. Not even five minutes ago, I swear.
Okay, so I was leaving plant ID, and Jason comes up behind me and kicks my bag. "Hah! There!" he exclaims.
"Heeey," I whined, "you meanie!" He laughs, and as we walk through the door and up the stairs Devon joins us. "I'm gonna go cry now," I said, in mock-sadness.
They both laughed. "Good, then go cry!" Jason said victoriously.
Then it was my turn to laugh, but I tried not to. "It's not funny, you hurt my feelings!"
As soon as we get out side, both of them stop. "...Girls have feelings?" Jason asks in surprise.
"No, they just like to pretend," I joke, "they're really good at pretending."
And finally Devon gets his say in; "Yeah, they're really good at pretending."
As I walk off toward the res building, I call back, "Girls actually really don't have feelings, just mood swings."
Much hilarity ensued. (Because everyone from our class was just about outside then, and they thought that line was funny.)

Yeah. I'mma go eat lunch now bahye.

FUCK YES. -wriggles happily-

I NAILED IT. YEAH! I TOTALLY JSUT FUCKING PASSED THAT TEST, WOOHOO!

I skipped soils this morning to study, and I crammed as many of those botanical names into my skull as I could. And although I forgot 1/4 of those words, I still remembered a good 3/4 and made most of the rest of the shit up. And on the second part I answered all but one question with confidence.

I DEFINATELY FUCKING PASSED! :D AT THE VERY LEAST I'm expecting a 60. AT THE VERY MOST probably a 90, but that's only if I didn't fuck up whatever I was pretty sure I got right. XD So I'm likely to get somewhere in the 70-80 range, but I don't care because I know I did way better than the last test.


I PAASSSSSEEEEEED.


Well I'm off. I'm going home for the weekend, bahye.

'Kay, so...

Today was definitely better than yesterday. Five hours straight outside in this beautiful, beautiful weather did that to me. I woke up feeling a lot better. I had breakfast, went to class, found out I did pretty damn good on the Soils midterm, went to the optional math lecture (caught up on everything I missed yesterday -sighs in relief-) talked to my Plant Science teacher (Dr. Dave) about the binder I forgot in lab, he said he didn't pick it up (but he was going to look for me, yaaay), then spent an hour toolin' around campus for Plant ID. Decided to have lunch, it wasn't too bad. Then I went to my 3 hour Landscape management lab and we planted trees :D It was all good fun.

So today was DEFINITELY a better day than yesterday. Definitely.

That, and I just finished downloading the Special A anime.
I'm still wondering how the hell I started reading/watching shoujo, since the only shoujo I liked before college was Trinity Blood (which was practically shounen). -sighs- Ah well. I'm not going to worry about it unless I catch myself fangirling over yaoi. -shudders- SO NASTY EW. DX DX DX



As for today, my room smells faintly of crisp fall leaves. But again, we had another plant tour in Plant ID.

My dorm room smells like... episode II

Well, when I say here's today's update on what my room smells like, I'm not exaggerating with the term "update". This morning it had a bit of an earthy smell about it, and the bittersweet stench of apples that are just starting to rot. Now, it was faint, but that's a minor detail. The smell has been updated. For Plant ID I had a plant tour, so now 30 new leaves grace the shelves in our room (me and my roommate both are in Horticulture, and we both collected 15 leaves each), so now it has gone back to smelling all leafy. However, this pleasant leafy stench is a NEW-LEAFy stench, not an old crispy leafy stench like before (even though those guys are still chillin' on my shelf, beside the new ones)

So yeah, I like the leafy smell. Sure, it's not my FAVORITE smell, but it keeps our room smelling better than anyone elses. Three people have told me today that my room smells really good - two of those three said it was the best smelling room. Hoo-hah. I wish there was an award for that.

But yeah, keep 'er tuned for tomorrow's "My dorm room smells like..." episode! Wauuugh the suspense!

55 minutes and I can go home

So, I spent all of Soils class studyin' (seriously, all he was talking about was groundwater, most stuff of which I already know), spent half of math studyin' (he was just helping the class do the work I already had finsihed), did a math test, finished 20min earlier than the majority of the class, then I went downstairs (my Plant ID class is in the basement of the Ag building, whereas Soils and Math are both in the Ag Theatre, on the first floor), and sat in the hall... and studied. XD

It almost worked, I remembered a helluva lot more than I would have. I definately got more than seven plants down. I remembered the names alright, it's just the leaves i had some trouble with D:
The maples came pretty easy, they're simple to tell apart. So I'm pretty sure I nailed all nine of those.
The dog woods were a bit trickier - I remembered that flowering dogwood (Cornus florida) had the biggest of dogwood leaves, pagoda dogwood (Cornus alternifolia) has alternating leaves (the only dogwood to have this), and kousa dogwood (Cornus kousa) was the one with the tiny leaves. So I got those three dogwoods okay. I knew the sweet gum (Liquidambar styraciflua) right off the bat, as well as the ginkgo (Ginkgo biloba), but I think everyone knew the ginkgo. =\ I mean, seriously, if you see that things leaves you'd understand why. The ivies were easy, but sadly enough I spelt their genus totally wrong. DX Like, it doesn't even sound like what it's supposed to, so I probably won't even get part marks. I got fucking names from my warriors site stuck in my head, half of which are latin, so instead of putting "Parthenocissus" as their genus, I definately put "Pantheracissus" or something of the sort. >=| Stupid Panthera. I love him, I do, but his stupid name is stuck in my fucking head. DX

But yeah I can continue ranting about plant names buuuuut I don't love you enough. XD

And I get to see my puppy in about two hours, gleee~
And I guess Bob has Clash of Ninja 3 WHICH I WANT, so I'm going to "hang out" with him this weekend (and by "hang out" I mean use him for Shino, lol). And I hope that Jackie isn't there. I love her, I do... but the bitch hates me. DX I didn't do anythiiiiing. -whines-

"So, to wrap this up, Kakuzu is a mother fuckin' badass with five fuckin' hearts..."

Blogging completely brings the worst out in me.

And I'm fucked for tomorrows test; I can barely remember who my favorite Naruto characters are, let alone remember thirty fucking different leaves, their common names, their botanical names, their growing conditions, their use in the landscape, AND how to spell their god damned botanical names. -cusses-

I have AT LEAST 7 memorized, so at least when I fail it won't be ENTIRELY epic. I'll get one nudge in on the beast, as opposed to literally slaying it or literally being slain. I hate this class for the workload. this test is worth 12% of my final mark. DX


But anyways.

To cheer myself up, I've taken to very temporarily fangirling Kakuzu. TEMPORARILY; very.

And this guy is f#@$ing awesome... except for the fact he can't pronounce "Ka-ku-zu" worth shit. (but, as he says, "I know I'm not pronouncing it right and I don't give a fuckin' shit")

This made me considerably happier. <3
It's a biiiig step down from Caramelldansen, content wise, but I don't care. I f##@% love it.

Oh, and there was no pub night tonight, for some reason.

Bwuh, is not so good.

today wasn't all that great.
I have a Plant Science test tomorrow... once again, the whole class is preparing to fail.

Plant ID becamse ridiculously hard. Memorizing five leaf shapes, tree names, and botanical names last week was tricky, but easy at the same time.

This week I have to do fucking FIFTEEN. DX I'm doomed for this test. fuckfuckfuck.

In Landscape management, we got to re-seed a huge patch on the main lawn... woo... >3> Well, we got to drive around on all the different kind of big, badass mowers the school has first (so fun!) but i didn't, because I was excessively lazy. And Chris, the teacher-that-could-pull-off-being-a-student-because-he's-not-old-and-he's-awesome, asked why me and the person I was chatting with (shit, what's her name again?) why we weren't trying out the machines. She hates mowers, and she had a headache. I flat out told him, "I'm too damn lazy."
and he said "Alright, fair enough," and laughed.
It was great. XD but I got full marks for just showing up - three hours for 2% of my final mark is not so big a deal. Besides, the lady I was chatting with... well... let's say I don't feel COMPLETELY like I don't belong any more D:


And I still haven't finished Sokkenai doing the Caramelldansen. (And to answer your question Trav, yeah, he's one of my OC's.)

TRAVIS. EPITAPH. NOW.

-ignore the title plz-

So yeah.

Today was fun/sucky as ever.
Surprise quiz... and 90% of the Plant Science class failed it lol lol lol. Silly teachers.
He's not counting it towards our mark w00t w00t.

But anyways. Yeah. Today wasn't a bad day, class wise. Nothing really stood out other than the failed test or the hour-and-a-half-and-then-some note in Plant ID. Ah well. What can you do.

Tonight is Pub Night, once again... and I scraped up all the change I could find, and now I can actually afford a ticket. But they're sold out. At first I was mad (BOTH vending machines in the lounge have gipped me now, douchebags, stealing my moneys that I need for beer), but then I realized it doesn't matter, because if I buy the ticket, I can't afford the beer.

-sighs-

there's always next week, I suppose.